My life is in total mess,Please help me?My parents ruined my life?Best answer gets 10 pts?

My life is in total mess,Please help me?My parents ruined my life?Best answer gets 10 pts?

My life is in stake...please read it fully..You could save my sucked up life and I promise 10 points for the best answer?

I was an engineering student..I had attendance shortage so i had to repeat my semester for a year i.e I had to do my second year again and I did this deliberately because I wanted a year break for a reason..I am basically so passionate and interested towards films and always wanted to be a film-maker..but i was brain-washed,forced into engineering by my parents and relatives..I had no interest in it so I wasn't performing well either..so i deliberately cut classes and would come back home and see movies to evoke more passion and interest for my dream career and finally I got repeat course which means I would have a year break and my plan was to get into films and work as an assistant director for a year and see how film life is..if it suits me..let me continue that way...if i think I need prior film education...then lemme get into a film school after-wards or If I get any in-secured feeling about my future then lemme get back to engineering..this was my loyal plan and I said about this to my parents..and my b***** father who always wanted to be against me went against my wishes and also ruined the film contacts I had and urged them not to help..he would even beat my mom and say If you talk anymore about films,I'll beat your mom to death(this was actually preplanned by them to stop me talking about films)then i stopped talking about films and I never was allowed to join films..because in my country..the whole system of films happens in a different metro-city and I am in a small town..then later since I had like a year and didn't know what to do..I started investing time in stock market and learned a lot about stock markets and I went for a call-center training course which later offered me a job which I didn't take..please see to that I never went to all these out of my own wish or interest..My interest was always films..I was forced sub-consciously to get into something to fill the gap of 1 year so i got into them didn't knowing what to do...so now that 1 year has passed..but I fought with my parents and dropped out of college 2 months back saying I had no interest in studies..my point is I still have 3 years to complete that bullshit engineering I don't want to waste three years of my life to something I am not interested and rather would love to invest it in film arena so I dropped out..now I am confused.....since I got into too many things this one year my mind is diverted..now I've got a solid knowledge about stocks where I made some nice profits in this time-gap so my mind says get into stocks and make more money and be a billionaire sometime..since I got into call-center training..I am offered a job there which pays me decently so go to job and make money and invest in stocks..and I always wanna get into films too..what should I do?my parents ruined my life because had they sent me to films for that 1 year i wouldn't have inserted my heads into too many things to make me feel helpless now..that 1 year loss has affected me a lot since it went to drains and the so and sole reason of having that 1 year break went into vain..now I am totally confused and moreover since I was in home mostly for this one full year I have developed a lot of laziness..so much god-damn laziness,un-interest , no grip in life...just imagine being like a stone inside a room since you didn't get what you want and that's not because your mistake but because of your parents mistake..so how much is the guilt of loosing it?i am feeling it..and I have become too wierd ,stopped talking with my friends..avoiding them and ignoring their phone calls and not feeling like talking to anyone..I am disoriented and dis-interested towards everything and everyone...My life would have been great if my parents had granted my film entry for a year since they didn't my life got totally screwed up..because may be I would have even got back to studies and engineering if I felt film-life is too tedious for me but for that I have to get into it actually and have some experience to know about it right? but they didn't give me that chance..so i didn't want to continue studies and waste 3 years..so I dropped out to..and now my interest in films too has gone down 50% from whats it was a year back and my interest and passion for success in life has also has weakened since I had been like a dead rat for a year because of my parents..I am feeling mentally stressed and disturbed so much..right now am being like a retard who doesn't know what to do about life..and the one more thing disturbing me is my bastard father whose the main reason for almost all this but he's so cool and uncared about me rather than just yelling at me although mistake was his..I am sitting in home now like a useless..I know am being wrong but i am not able to help myself t