what is my mental state?

I had panic attack when my mum died years ago. i had to take medicine for almost a year then spend anxiety free time without meds for three years.

Those three years without anxiety were very very stressful, and i finally snapped at my cousins death. i was so scared i would die that i lost interest in my baby world and was just too scared. After all tests and reassiurances that i'm not having heart attack i started to work on my anxiety which took couple of months but i got hold of that without going to doc. its been 6 months. i do feel anxious etc sometimes but now i try to not let panic attack get me. so wt started my body parts started to get numb head, back, arm, hands face etc.

doc put me on med, escitalopram but i had severe reaction so doc stopped it in few days. now he gave me relaxin at night for seven days then see him again.

WHERE AM I HEADING? what am i going to develop menatlly.

I had idle life but i have started excercise and positive attitude, but what should i do.....is it enough?