calming my anger and hatered?

Just talk to me girl, I have just send you message on yahoo messenger.

I am in the same boat. You are not mad nor syco. Its the perception of ourselves. Tell you this Life is a ***** and you have to rule it, Otherwise ......

Remember one thing, No two persons are same, infact if you look at your own hand, the very fingers in the same hand are not same. So how could you judge your future relationship with such drastic attitude.

Get in touch.

Best of luck.

Try to think of some positive things in your life. Even though I am a lot younger I have a similar feeling inside of me. It's like I lost my liking for people. It's ok that you like to be alone, but when you're alone you should do things that will make you feel accomplished. This might not sound like a good idea to you but >counseling< is actually really helpful. Counselors are good people, they give good advice and they aren't judgemental towards you they're very understanding.

Go for counselling. A Good friend can solve your problem.

I think you need serious counseling or some "self help" books.