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I have no reason nor motivation to live. What should I do?
I ashamed to say I have no future, I've been given many opportunities in life, so I could have a future, but I lack any desire to have one.
I come from a very middle-class background. My older sisters were over-achievers and have a lot going for them, and despite us attending the same prestigious all-girls (public) school, I don't.
My father left last year, and I, being a typical fourteen-year-old with too much optimism in life, was in a state of shock. I don't particularly know why, he wasn't much of a father anyway. And my mother, she means well but I just don't like her. I don't like either of my parents. And I don't mean "OMG, I ******* HATE MY PARENTS. THEY DON'T UNDERSTAND ME," as any normal teenager would express dislike at their parents, only to be soon reminded, that in fact, they have an unconditional love for their parents. No, I genuinely do not like my parents for who they are. If ever I feel any bit of love for them it is purely out of guilt of not liking them, because loving your parents unconditionally is always expected. Don't misunderstand me, they never abused me or anything, I just don't like them, and I would have nothing to do with them if they weren't my parents. And this passive dislike also fits my relationship with my sisters. Have you ever heard the saying, "Friends are the family you choose for yourself,"? Well, I always reverse that to suit my own situation, "family are the friends you didn't choose to have."
Enough about my family, they are only the start of my problems.
I have no friends. Not that I really want friends anyway. Well, I associate with a couple of people from my class, but we have nothing to do with each other outside school hours, and I know that they don't like me they're just too afraid to tell me to get lost. My social life is truly non-existent.
Which brings me to my next problem: I think I have a personality disorder. Possibly Narcissistic Personality Disorder, Schizophrenia of some description, or Paranoid Personality Disorder, or better still, a delightful combination of all three. Not to mention Hypochondria.
On top of that, I have secretly struggled with an eating disorder for the past two years (since I was 13). I don't want to get anybody else involved, they think eating disorders are all about vanity and blame it on the media, when my eating disorder has nothing to do with anyone else but me. Which is why I am recovering, alone. Well it's not entirely secret, the only people that don't seem to know are my family. I seem to have a habit of broadcasting my eating disorder, probably because I am so narcissistic. Don't misunderstand narcissism, Narcissus did not fall in love with himself, he fell in love with his reflection. Meaning that, the only way I have any self-worth is through everybody else's perceptions of me.
I'm trying to recover from my eating disorder, but for some reason I don't want to, because I will have nothing to hide behind when I am mentally stable, and nothing to blame for my eccentric ways.
And just to ensure that I am a complete failure in life: I am a pathological liar. I lie in the same way as any other Narcissistic person does. I log onto the internet to be myself and to tell the truth, yet I always seem to find myself lying again. I get a thrill out of lying, I lie at any chance I get without any shame at all. I am an excellent liar, though I lie more so to fool myself rather than to fool others, as a form of escapism you could say. Sometimes the lies get to be so much I cannot separate the fact from the fiction, which generally, I like because I don't feel any guilt and I can never be proven wrong.
I also have to mention, probably as a result of my eating disorder, I am asexual. That doesn't mean I reproduce by myself like a strawberry plant, it means that I have no sexual desires whatsoever. Which could be problematic in this undeniably sexualised modern world, where everything social is sexual.
And to top it all off, I am extremely cynical, and I have no hope in myself or in mankind, I am extremely pessimistic. Global matters affect me on such a personal level that I have very little time for my own worries, except for my occasional rant, i.e., now. I spend hours just thinking. I'd like to paint about my feelings but I now that my mother will want to see my work and she would not be pleased. I hate my own generation, who seem to mill around with no real purpose. I cannot stand that; I have to have meaning. But while I have nothing to live for, I also have nothing to die for, so suicide is out of the question.
Please don't tell me that someday I'll wake up and the sun will be shining and everything will be bright and happy and lah-dee-dah! I can't wait that long, I've been like this for quite some time now and I'm definitely giving up hope. No material thing could ever change the way I feel, nobody could ever make me happy.
But I would have some short-term happiness if you spared me the story about when you fou
(Continued) found God, and your life dramatically changed. I've been searching for God for quite some time now, it seems HE'S the one not making any contact with ME.
I'm 15, I'm not running out of time, I'm running out of motivation to live. Motivation that I never really had I suppose, I've just suddenly realised my desperate situation.
What can I do?
There definitely is such thing as asexual humans. About 1 in every 100 is asexual. Get educated: http://www.asexuality.org/home/
I'm almost certain that this isn't just a teenaged phase, so please take me seriously.
Also, spare me the Michael Jackson quotes. His life wasn't exactly inspiration (through no fault of his own, might I add).
And can I just say, 3 people have starred this question. What sort of twisted person would star a mental health question? *laughs*.
12 Answers
- rainy-hLv 51 decade agoFavorite Answer
You are clearly a highly intelligent, thoughtful, philosophical, unique individual, something this world is clearly bloody lacking in my opinion. Unfortunately that's a pretty crappy thing to be at 14, and you're probably a grown adult trapped in a teenagers body at the moment (most adults behave and think like children, this also makes you pretty unique). I think the world needs people like you and you have a glittering life ahead of you once you're free of the constrictions that childhood place on a person (having to deal with parents/schoolmates/your limited geographical sphere and all that crap) and you can **** all that stuff off and get out and find your own place in a world which is far more diverse than you know yet. Hang on in there till the restrictions are behind you and work out what the hell you need to do to this world - because I feel it will be significant.
P.S. people sometimes star questions so that they can find them again easily and see what the answers are, don't be so bloody cynical, all the time. You don't know everything and everyone yet.
- 1 decade ago
i feel exactly the same as you,
about life, and i've only just recovered from my eating disorder exept now i want to go back to it,
anyway,
i suppose you have to just keep plodding on
i mean thats all you can do
there doesnt seem to be much point in life tbh
apart from trying to make yourself happy
so thats what you have to try to do
make a list of things your not happy about
and then one by one do all you can to change them
it'll take up your time and make you happier
and once your happier you'll seem more appealing to people
and they'll want to get to know you and things will open up
well thats what im trying to do anyway
theres not really anything much else to do is there?
i hope you find happyness xx
Source(s): personal experience - 1 decade ago
"I'm 15, I'm not running out of time,"
There's your answer then, isn't it. You haven't even started to live, so how can you run out of motivation to?
You're still a kid. Whatever you need help with you'll be ensured to get from somewhere. Be glad that you're still young enough to have that option while you've discovered something is "wrong". I really think that like most kids who do, you're only considering suicide because you learned about it, then simply got carried away with the thought. And also like most of these kids what you want is to be paid more attention, not to die.
- Anonymous1 decade ago
I used to have the same condition of self loathing but what you should do is put your life in perspective: are you healthy? do you have both working arms and legs? do you have a family and roof over your head? kids and adults with terminal diseases are not yet they continue to live each day to the fullest, don't be a quitter.
Michael Jackson once said, "no matter the circumstance, be alive, be free, and love life because life is precious and not meant to be wasted."
hell I'll talk to you if you don't have any 'friends' and as for your asexuality...surely you're attracted to someone whether you can attain them or not. there's no such thing as asexual humans.
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- 1 decade ago
My advice, dear child, is to get in touch with a counselor you can trust. Teen years are tough and a little extra guidance and support won't hurt. You seem very intelligent and informed on mental health issues. I think your knowledge will be appreciated in various aspects of the community- like mentoring. Good luck and God bless.
Source(s): Life - 1 decade ago
Maybe if you see a counselor or psychiatrist they could help you out. You can't deal with all of those mental problems by yourself. Let someone else teach you how to deal with them and find hope in the smallest things.
Just learn how to enjoy life because it is true that life is short.
- 1 decade ago
u need to find a reason to get out of bed to live ur life to the full
for example find a boy find a hobbie or join a group meet new people travel the world you can do any thing if u put ur mind to it dont let any thing or any one hold u back u can do anything u want to!!! :)
good luck
xxxxx
- TeresaLv 45 years ago
You seem like you need to talk and vent so I would suggest a therapist and a psychiatrist cause it does appear you are depressed. The sooner you get help the sooner you will feel better.
- Anonymous1 decade ago
Keep searching for God, He'll get you there. No joke, read a Bible some to learn about Him. If you truly want Him in your life, pray. Ask Him to come into your life and help you. He will, if you are sincere. If you really want to know Him, but are still having struggles, e-mail me. I'd be more then happy to help you overcome all of this. Please, feel free. :) Jesus really does love you.
- Anonymous1 decade ago
find a motivation
dont give up on things so easy
stop stayign in self pity, it wont get you anywhere
find some m8s
find a bf
gd look and remember to love your self :)