so there's this boy... BIG SUPRISE RIGHT?! nahht?

i've been through hell and back to get my best friend Jim back. It was nothing that was said or done that made him leave, his girlfriend just controlled him and though it would be better if we werent friends. So for moths, i was without him. and it hurt me SO bad. We're back to where we once were, bestfriends again! and weve talked about everything and hes apologized and blahblah. hes now single and falling head over heels for my cousin!(: so while me, my cousin, Jim, and our friend Peter are hanging out, which is pretty often now since we are officially reunited ,haha, my cousin and Jim sorta do their own thing. Basically what i'm saying, is that me and Peter have had some time ot get to know eachother. and ive started having these feelings about him that i never thought i would.

that isnt the problem; just some background information. lol

so weve been talking on and off lately, with or without Jim and my cousin around. i feel like hes muuuch more open now. when i first met him he was soooo reserved and straight up RUDE. now i can lay my head on his shoulder and hug him and play with his hand or hair or foot.

last weekend he texted me saying he wanted to hang out, but i wasnt around so i couldnt. then he told me he wanted to have sex with me.

and i just was like yeaaa lmaaao

;;;;i didnt know what to say? because i wanted to, and i wasnt sure if he was serious. and then he said jp

):

BUT then the next day, he said it again. without the jp

and he keeps telling me he wants to and everytime i tell him i want to also, the conversations get more and more serious..

he told me yesterday, again, that he wanted to have sex with me and i told him so did i

the problem was, my dad was home, and his mom was home, so we had nowhere to go. my dad had work today so i was going to stay there alone and Peter was going to come over and we would have sex.. except, my dad made me come back to my moms house this morning..

he texted me last night saying

"hey whats good where are you?"

and i said "i'm at my dads"

Peter: "Oh really? Is he there?"

Me: "yea"

Peter: "Well, he has to work tomorrow, right?"

Me: "yea"

Peter:"So you'll have the whole house to yourself?"

Me: "na, hes making me go home."

Peter: "Damn. Wow. Well, can you chill,like, right now??"

Me: "na, hes being an *** and won't let me out. i shouldn't have come!"

Peter: "Dam, what about our plan? I'm tryna do that? What time are you leaving? I'll come over early"

Me: "Earllyy"

Peter: "What time does your dad go to work?"

Me: "like 7"

Peter: "and what time are you leaving?"

Me: "im leaving with him."

Peter: "Nooooo you cant do that!"

Me: "i dont have a choice.."

Peter: "yes you do! say you want to spend the day home alone cuz you're still sick and i wont even tell anyone im coming over. it will just be me and you"

Me: "i dont want to go, hes making me.."

Peter: "do you want to sneak out?"

Me: "maybe later.."

Peter: "dammmm when are you coming back??"

Me: "friday?"

Peter: "iiiiight are we chillen?"

Me: "yeaaa"

Peter: "iight good"

sooooooooooooooooooooooo i cant stop thinking about him basicallly...

does it sound like he really wants to have sex or is he just fu@@@cking wiht me? i dont want to get hurt, or waste my time. .....