I tried to kill myself the other night---I lost my job about two years ago ever sinse then I snapped and fell?

I dont think your crazy, im not a shrink but have been through something simliar, when you see no way out and when you think you have lost everything you do things you wouldnt have done before. I wish I had some magic words of advice to give you, but all I can tell you that it does eventually get better. Yes it does take time and it takes longer than you think you can wait, but it does happen. The only thing I can really tell you is to keep bugging the doctors untill they find out what will help you, there are many different forms of therapy and lots of different anti-depressants, and unfortunately it can take ages to find the one that will suit you. Think about your kids at all time, and the next time you pick up the bottle, imagine them in front of you. No matter how bad it gets, you do have a little control over your actions, you have to physically pick up the bottle or the razor, and if you decide that you will do anything not to hurt your kids then you can decide to put up with the pain.

When you have got through this you will not want to forget about it, because it does make you a stronger person, and you dont have to love your life to be happy, you say your a loving person and you care deeply, you can find happiness in that, in loving your kids. I know a lot of what I have said you have probably heard before, but its what I can tell you from personal experience. I know you dont believe me right now but you will get through this.

I think you should ask him to stay with you. He obviously has had a hard life and needs someone like you to always be there. Even if he finds a...um...guy...you can always be there, waiting in the wings. Most relationships as those don't last. If his does, which would be good for him, you can still be the understanding best friend who, even if he went out and dyed his hair purple you would still love him. As for now, try to be consoling. Next time you go see him, try saying something like, "I know your upset right now. So am I. But Albert Einstein once said "God doesn't play dice with the universe.' We can get through this. I'm with you all the way." You can probably think of a less dramatic and corny way to deliver that general message :D Hopefully, enough encouraging will set him on the right path. You say that you were a bit sad that 'nothing would come of your relationship'. I'm here to say if you stand by him in rough spots, love him unconditionally, laugh often, and just live your life together, its the best experience. Later in your life, you may have a twist of romance. If your looking for something to say romance wise: "I know your life hasn't exactly flowed happiness. But happiness is a personal choice. If you come with me, we can be happy. Together." Sorry, I go for the dramatic :D

You have to take it one day/step at a time. And don't harm yourself because your ex has somebody else. What did you expect, For her to wait forever? You have to get past that first of all, because you seemed to have been on the right path before you found out she was having sex. Then focus on making a accomplishment. That will make you feel a little better and feel like you can actually get back on track. And from there just keep on taking one step at a time to get back where you want to be in life. And keep loving your kids, they only get one dad! So be an example. Show them that they can bounce back no matter how hard life gets. And I don't know if you believe in God but the more I read and understand The Bible, the more this life makes sense to me.

If you have seriously tried to kill yourself eight times then your on this planet now for a reason, you only get life once and make the most out of it. Granted im only 13 but seriously bro, u have to just straighten up. Get a good job, even if its somthing like fast food. Possibly stay with family so that you can work up money. What by chance do you have in the terms of school? If nothing, go to comunity college, people are more likley to hire if you have a ok education. Hope this helps

that all must've been terribly hard to deal with, i don't know what i would've done in your situation

i think you should either go to the ER now and tell them what's going on or at least speak with a doc, counsellor or priest (depending on your religion, if you are religious that is).

btw, the hospital is really not as terrible as you may think, i was in there when i was 17 and again when i was 18...if you're in immediate danger they only keep you for 3 days, none of that keeping you for years against ur will stuff you see on t.v...they clear people out as quick as they can to make room for others...also, it's a really good opportunity to forget all your problems, and try to get a clear head and gain some insight into your problems...think deep and hard about death, do you REALLY want your life to end? you'll never get a second chance once your dead, but anything is possible when you are alive.

best of luck to you.

Anybody who works at one job and only relays on that job to carry him through the rest of his life is not thinking right.

I'm always amazed at Americans that work at one job all their lives and when they get fired or laid off they go postal and think it's the end of the world.

what were you doing to prepare yourself for a day like this, you must thought about it before, didn't you ever thought that you are working for someone else and he could fire you or lay you off any time he wants?

did you tried to save some money, acquire some skills, start your own business, apply for other jobs? etc?

I work at three different jobs, I never trusted myself with one job. If you lose one you go to the other one, simple as that.

Plus losing a job is not the end of the world, we weren't brought here to work for others, it's just part of life, but not life it's self.

go back to school, find another jobs, start your own business etc. it's an opportunity to change your life, you could either make the outcome positive or focus on the negative and make it worse. some ppl will see this as a great opportunity to change their life and take advantage at, sometimes it's a blessing in disguise.

well, it sounds to me that your ex-wife and kids are what your world revolves upon. I'm not going to say you are going to win the ex-wife back, but this really needs to be made about the kids. They are your children, they depend on you, need you for support, you are their shoulder to cry on, the person that picks them up, dusts them off, and tells them to try, just one more time. You need to be there for them, and i think that can be your motivation. I don't know what I would have done without my father there every step of the way, he still is behind me. Forgetting is never something you want to do. You want to learn from your mistakes, so you never make the same ones again. I know you can be there for them, for those kids, they need you, and you need them. Make them your reason to get better, to go back to being you. I wish you the best of luck, and when things get tough, remember, you have to keep going, if not for yourself, for them. Do it for them.

hey, don't give up....it's your life, you can change it...I know it's hard when you're not yourself and in a depressed state but time will surely heal it....just be patient and true.....don't be afraid to ruin your life cause you know deep inside you're a good person and someday it will come out.........we tend to make mistakes when we feel lost or alone or deprived or anything that falls into that emotions......someday when you find the courage to move on and start again...you will come back to the person you used to be......you may not be perfect but you can always correct your wrongs.....goodluck, and you're not alone.....me suffering from depression and suicidal and everything..my life sucks, I barely talk to people, never left home, my life ruined because of racing thoughts and ANXIETY.......well, I am not giving up....if I still have the will to fight, then I will be fighting to get my life back.....

You've seen just about every professional there is that can help you with this and you think that spilling your guts on a site where kids can give you advice is going to work?

This kid says, just keep taking your meds and talking to the councilors.

Go get saved first ! Clean your temple and let Jesus in ! He can and will give you peace and at the same time restore that which you have lost.