What is Wrong With Me!!!?

You're addicted to pain pills - they dull the pain *and* all of your emotions. That is probably most of your problem. Please go see a doctor (not the one that keeps giving you pain pills ugh) and let them know your situation. They can lead you to recovery options.

I've been through depression before -- it's certainly not fun. It's energy draining, and makes you feel completely worthless. The way i got help? I went and saw a professional. I wasn't happy about doing so... I thought I was crazy! But i do believed that it saved my life. If you feel uncomfortable doing that, try calling a suicide hot-line. The people on the other end are trained to talk you through your depression, and can help you figure out the best thing for you to do. If you find that your psychologist or psychiatrist is not giving you the response you need, try to find someone else. But remember that they are trained professionals. And if all else fails, wake up every morning, drag yourself to the mirror, SMILE and repeat: I am worth it.

You need to relax you need to stop obsessing over things don't obsess over every thing just relax. Every one has a right to live and a purpose don't feel like you need to be destroyed every one has something ng they are put on this earth to do. Maybe you went from being so pore and helpless to being with so much and an awesome place to live your in shock, your not being ungrateful its just a major change for you. You need to find some one you can talk to because apparently your family doesn't see the problem. I hope this helps :)

Therapy of some kind is in order here. VERY HARD to find the right therapist for YOU. Some people need to try many to get the right fit. Another suggestion would be finding your faith. When I am low and cannot shake it that means I need to get back to church and prayer. That always helps me.

What if it was OK for you not to interact with people? Maybe it's fine that you prefer to be alone. Look for hobbies that you might like to take up - building model airplanes, origami, cooking, knitting, lots of things you can do by yourself.

If the medical model of mental health isn't working for you, look beyond it. Just give yourself permission to try out every weird therapy on the planet - plenty of them on the web. Maybe yoga, meditation, homeopathy (yes, even for mental health), anthroposophical medicine, psychics, reiki, rohun. Just go through the list systematically.

NO JOKE... i had the worst attitude when i was a teen. HORRIBLE to people and depressed. My family bought an old house we had to fix up and the labor part of it really helped me to get out my frustrations. I'm not joking when i say doing labor activity helps you feel more accomplished and dont leave u feeling like a screw up. Please try to find a volunteer job or something dealing with building something or phyiscially contructiong something

listen to me. you do not need to die. that's ridiculous. stand up straight and no matter how ridiculous you feel, say "I deserve to live". say it again and again and again. until you believe it. because it's true. if you are strong enough, take the pain pills. flush them down the toilet. all of them. if you're not strong enough, flush down most of the bottle, so you can't take enough to hurt yourself. if you are truly at the point of killing yourself, please call a suicide hotline. if not, find a really good therapist. you need one. you CAN get better. join a sport, too. once i started to play tennis my stress was relieved and i felt a bit better. you can do it. take care of yourself.

good luck.

well it seems to me you need somebody, someone who depends on YOU. someone you know who needs YOU to be there. i know it may not make total since but it can honestly be true. you could get a girlfriend, a girl who wants you and who needs you. or you could get a pet, this way you know someone relies on you to be there.

or in another case you may need to become in competition, like you said about your grades, get involved with something you are good at, compete with your talent. there are all things to compete in.

maybe volunteer in something, helping th homeless, helping the animal shelters, tutoring students

do something that makes you happy!

go out and party, meet a girl, the thing is, you just have to do something!

It's the pain pill addiction screwing up your head.

Time for rehab.?

Dude, jus chill. You're jus thinkin too much. Let go and jus do wat you feel like man... And once you think your doing wat you wanna do, realise it. And be happy. Also try to find people whose company YOU appreciate and hang around them, if it makes you happy. You will grow on them and their happiness will sap into you. Try it...

And hey, if you say you got nothinhg, then you got nothing to lose !!!

Take care, man ^^