I was in the best mood I had been in for a while yesterday...?

Now, due to many circumstances beyond my control, I'm about as miserable as possible....and just before New Years. So do I say screw everyone and everything, and go rip it up like a mad man? Or do I try to figure out what is going on with my multiple issues first.

I have someone that lied to me...about important things, and it was brought to my attention by a third party, who doesn't want me to tell the first person...but of course I have no way of knowing unless I out the third party for telling me. I can either swallow what I've learnded and let the person continue lying to me, acting like I don't know or care (which I suck at) or tell my friend the third person, sorry, but I'm throwing you under the bus to confront the liar. Who, for all I really know could just be lying to the thrid person.

Then I have someone very VERY dear to me, going through unimaginable and difficult issues. I love her, but am being pushed away suddenly. And while part of me understands it, most of me doesn't because I disagree with it....I'm not sure if I'm full of myself in thinking that I'm good for her....or if I just want to be with her for my own selfish reasons....

Most likely a combination of both.

The fact that both hit me at almost the same time is driving me nuts. I have little to gain except self satisifaction and a nice "F-YOU" to confront the liar...but this person was once very dear to me as well....and to know I've been lied to really hurts, especially considering the subject.

And to the girl who got away...or may be getting away...hopefully, she's just overwhelmed with other things, and realized that we really are good for each other. I think giving her, her space may be the best route to take for now....

I know non of this is really a question....but I needed to vent somewhere. Thanks to whoever has something constructive to say and bothered reading.

And cheers to whoever trolls me with horrible comments, you people make me laugh.