Unable to enjoy games anymore!?

Ok so it would help if i briefly explained my problem lol. Im 16 and I suffer from social anxiety, over the last 5 or 6 months i have rarely left my house, because it was easier than dealing with things at the time and it just became the norm. So I spend Allot of time doing things i always did- draw, play games,watch movies, tv etc. Here's where it gets strange- you see i think my social anxiety really got bad at school in my second to last year when i made enemies with some jerks who thought they,r s**t was made of gold( A* student, front row, make fun of everyone and everything behind and in front of there backs, sound like they watch family guy all the time- nothing against family guy) anyway it got to the point when i couldn't even go into a section of the chool for fear of ridicule among a massive crowd of asshole followers. Moving to the present day - my problem involving games: is for a long time i couldn't stop thinking about these assholes and how it seemed they ruined my school life for my last two years(i over think things too death ) and i would compare myself to them more and more and think they are so mutch better than me(major low self esteem :() over the month iv spent indoors i seem to have no Control over what im thinking and its like if i let my mind wander for 1 second ill think about them and how they are off at college being assholes and getting friends for making people feel bad - ( damn iv rambled on again sorry this is soo long lol) now when ever i watch a movie or play a game i instinctively compare all they characters to those guys and the game becomes pointless and (at the risk of sounding completely nuts) against me in some fathom of my thoughts. Now I either avoid one of the things i love doing the most or i play the game to the end all the while battling these thoughts I know must be untrue but are there none the less( another thing that prevents me from playing is the thought that somewhere they might play the same game and then it would be like i am giving in and acting like them altough i know that's not true it still gets to me.

I could go on for pages more but i doubt people will read if its sooo long.

Thank you to anyone who reads this and even more thanks if you comment. - sorry if it makes no sence at all, it hardly makes sence to me.

Oh and please no hatefull remarks i don't need to deal with people telling me im nuts or stupid or attention seeking, this is all true and driving me bonkers.