Is there anybody like me? I feel so different?

No your not by yourself babay! I too am very comfortable with having that alone time ( I came into this world by myself and will that way as well ) and think vasily different than my friends and family. I too always want a normal peaceful calm relationship with a guy in the hopes of building a relationship to the points where we would start a family. But it seems that a large number of gay males have a problem with commitment and other things theses. I believe that there is someone for everyone we just have to wait a bit longer than others because we know what it is we want in life. Not saying that others don't. I have started to say as a joke for myself that I belong in the land of the misfit toys. It keeps my spirits light and uplifted.

You will be just fine.

Nope, that's just who you are!

I too am gay, but just because I like solitude and enjoy chilling by myself & doing what I want it doesn't mean I'm weird. Yes I have friends and things but doing what you love isn't odd.

It's called being independent :)

You'll eventually find someone, maybe just tag along with your mates until you find a guy to nick off with next time?

Good luck buddy, you're not alone - no matter how easy it is to think that.

It's called depression from being in the closet. You enjoy your own company because you can think about how you wish your life was, without any interruptions. Do you lie awake all night thinking about it/ another man? Don't worry, finding someone is always difficult, especially when you're in the closet. Put yourself out there, go to another country, have fun, and don't worry about it. If you over think, you will never find someone. Time is key in your situation, but what you decide to do as time passes, that's up to you to decide, just don't let it bring you down in the meantime...

You're a loner like me. I'm 18, gay, love heavy metal, happiest when staring at night sky listening to music. I accept my solitude like yeah it's meant to be.

I also think differently from most people.

I don't really know any gay people... I keep to myself, only a few people know that I'm gay, but I don't care who knows...

So much to say still... don't we all feel different? It's normal... expected.

Welcome to how life works. It's hard for a lot of people to find someone that's right for them. Being gay means you have a smaller pool of options.

Hang in there and keep your eyes open. You never know when you'll come across the right person.

Story of my life.. except I've never been to London before. Anyway, I'm sure there are lots of people out there with mutual feelings.

Please don't use the word "fag", I hate it.

I can understand where you are coming from. I actually traveled alone in London as well. Keep looking, someone will come along when the time is right.