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Not going to lie to you, that's pretty f*cked up. Don't be so hard on yourself though, your going through a really hard time trying to figure out about your sexuality. Give him time, and explain this to him. Ask him if he remember when he was coming to term with his sexuality and multiply that by 10 and that's what your going through. Write a letter and let him know your willing to give him as much time as it take for him to forgive you. Make sure you do that, after you write the letter let it go until he contacts you no matter how long it takes. You don't deserve hate comments, people make mistakes and you obviously feel terrible about it. Your not trying to make excuses and your owning up for your actions. That's way more decent than most people.

As for your sexuality maybe you just find certain individuals attractive. You might be pansexual. Either way take this time to sort out your feelings and try to figure out who you are. I'm sorry you having such a hard time, it seems like this all came at you kind of fast. Good Luck and don't get to down on yourself.

I have been in your shoes, and the feelings you are having are normal. It sounds a lot like Post Traumatic Stress Snydrone, and you need to go and get some help. I know you say you don't have the time with working, but you need to put yourself first. The last think you want to do is end it all-the old geezer isn't worth it. If you really can't get to a doctor, then I would recommend going to a minister. They are usually free and will work with your schedule. Also, look in the phone book under support groups or call your local hospital/clinic and they should be able to give you some referral numbers to call. It really helped me to overcome it when I got into a support group with other people that had the same problems i had had. I didn't have the nightmares/flashbacks, but I did really feel guilty about it even though I did nothing to provoke it and you didn't either. You will get past it, but it won't happen overnight. It takes time. You've had all this built up inside of you for 10 years, and it's going to take a while. In all reality, you need a therapist who will listen and knows how to deal with it professionally. I don't know that you ever get over it, but you can learn how to cope with it and get on with your life. If you are losing sleep over it you will get run down and sick. So, even if you have to call in sick at work I would do that and go to a doctor. Good luck.

I feel really sorry for you.. It sounds like you just fell in love with this person who happened to be a guy and I would guess that all this outrageous behaviour was partly because you were a bit freaked as you have always been solely attracted to women.

I would say that you prob have not f****d stuff up with your friend (if he was a true pal) but for sure you need to stop hassling him. Give him space. From his point of view he has thought of you totally unreachable (you being straight) and it has prob shocked him to the core that you felt the way you do.. I am not saying that he will eventually turn up on your doorstop and declare his undying love for you but hopefully in the future you two can be mates again... It was pretty childish to say to the 'interest' that you and 'friend' were seeing one another but alot of daft things are said in the heat of the moment and with any luck him and 'interest' will fizzle out.. For now though please take my advice and leave 'friend' alone.. He knows you are keen to see/speak to him but it should be on his terms right now and if he is not ready to do so, respect him..

you f^cked up bad kiddo. You're going to need to give this some space. Give yourself some time to get yourself under control, and him some time to be less angry, and he has every right to be angry. Don't call him, don't show up at his house, eventually you will need to apologize not only to him, but to the guy he is dating.

After you've let things cool off, start up a dialogue through a mutual friend. Have the friend apologize for you and ask if you can all get together as a group and go out to dinner or something. Promise to behave (YOU BETTER F^CKING BEHAVE). Continue to only hang out in a group for awhile. You need to understand that this is entirely his decision, you f^cked up, if he doesn't want to talk to you you have to let it be at that. Hopefully in time he will reconsider.

Remember, do not approach him directly, have someone else do it for you. You need to behave yourself, you need to let this attraction go, you need to act responsibly. You have shattered his trust in you and that will take a very long time to put back together. If he's willing to give you the chance.

Please just forget about him and move on with your life...

It will hurt at first because you'd developed feelings and whatnot as well as forming a close friendship, but it's best for everyone...

You were close friends with him and became confused...

You're NOT gay.

You've probably messed up the friendship and trust too, which is, believe it or not, FOR THE BEST, because it will allow you to heal faster not waiting around to see if things will progress with this guy...

Just LEAVE him ALONE and move on with your life... Please.

I say this for your best interest.

wow, man. that really sucks. you could try finding his interest again and telling him everything. maybe he'll understand. if it was me I would do that then ask him if he could tell friend that I was sorry and that I feel like shist and such. I would then wait for friend to at least call or something, and if nothing happens, I'd just try my best to deal with the heart break. I'm sorry, dude. it sounds like you really have it rough. love makes people do stupid crap sometimes.

dump him..he is confused and ****** up...don't let him take you down with the ship. Trust that there are plenty of men out there who would love to have you...go for it! HE can be your friend, but no more. There may come a day when he will regret his actions, but that is his problem. Stop letting him hurt you...not fair.!

go tell intrested friend everything.

the last thing u want is to loose ur friend D:

gd luck

cause tht is messed up.

maybe you should just wait till it passes.