I have horrible anxiety, but doctors want give me antidepressants.?

I'm going to try to be throughly detailed & I will post this on a medical form too. I just want as much as advice that I can get.

I have really bad anxiety, or I believe iI think it's anxiety. I get so nervous that I forget to breath. Out of the blue I'll feel like time is moving really slow and I'm moving really fast (even though I know I'm moving at normal rate, but it feels like that). I always see what it looks like rain drops out of my peripheral. The back of my teeth ache for me clinching my jaw. My heart beats uncontrollably. I have the worst time trying to get to sleep. Sometimes when I talk to someone who is just a couple feet away I feel like they are a mile away and it's echoing & I have been having a horrible headache lately (but I'm pretty sure that's just my sinus').

I work out everyday, I eat healthy, I don't drink, smoke cigarettes or do drugs, when my anxiety gets really bad I do the brown paper bag breathing trick. It's affecting my life, I have to do all of my college classes online, it's hard for me to have a job or anything that involves being around new people & I don't want to live like that. I have been to multiple doctors about it and they just ask if I'm pregnant or on drugs, which I tell them no to both. So they prescribe me antidepressants and I tried them for however long the prescription is for, they make me feel so numb and well... depressed. I'm not depressed. I just can't do anything that involves interacting with people. I try pushing through it, by forcing myself to go out and being around people, the whole entire time I feel like I'm having a heart attack and that I'm going to faint.

Excuse my grammar & run on sentences (was trying to kinda-sorta list my symptoms), but I'm looking for medical advice from hopefully pro...er.. semi-professionals people who have experience in this field, cause every "professional" doctor I turn to isn't working out. Obviously.