what is wrong with me?

(why would you search this at this section?)

Anyways. Yeah. You need fresh air. And besides, don't go wanting to do something because others are doing it. Clubbing is one thing, fights is another. I actually want to stop having to many fights. I someone got that out of my system through smoking (which is bad btw, don't follow). I do go clubbing, but not to an excess that I soon would get bored of it. Too much of something will make you get tired of it one day. Plus, change is usually hard to do, it takes time. Why don't you walk around somewhere for awhile, alone or with a friend. Just chat. If you find someone interesting, then talk to that person. Just take things slowly. Just play xbox less. Go out in the open. Trust me this is good.

You sound like me. A lot like me actually. I really don't have an answer to this as I am searching for one myself but trust me a death in your family will just make everything worse. I've gone through four already... My grandpa, grandma, aunt, and mom, It's not fun. If you are like me, It'll just make you want to hide and live in fantasy forever. I keep telling myself that I want to change and I try but for the most part it just doesn't work because you can't really change who you really are. If you're not a fighter then don't fight, I've never fought in my life. But the clubbing you might be able to do, see if you can find someone to go with like a friend or coworker if you work. I really don't have anything else to tell you.