I was so sad and embarrassed today?

Today i didn't put any deodorant and usually i don't even stink! But i guess today i did.Ok here's the full story of what happened pretty much i was kinda late for school but still made it and its winter here i wore alot of shirts t shirt, school shirt,school sweater,and jacket so yea bad move on my part because it made me smell like a skunk(i know gross but i never ever smell gross so i kinda gave myself i bad rep of being "stinky girl" probably) anyways people kept saying stuff like EWWWWWWW!?!? whats that smell i couldn't even raise my arm up a little bit :(.I thought maybe they were trying to hint to whoever they thought stinked.

Even one of my good friends told me whats wrong(i had a sadish face on)i lied a little and said my stomach hurts because the lunch and she was like ooh it happens to me all the time too.But i tried to hide it a little by when our bathroom breaks came i took some toilet paper and i wiped it my arms a little.I know it was even worst my teacher likes to joke and stuff when he came by our row he was like hey and stuff he bent down a little and i knew he smelt me.He even told me i didn't want to say this but(my heart started pounding)blah blah blah i thought he was gonna tell me i stinked.

Also tomorrow i have gym we do warm ups so everyone gets a little sweaty how can i sneak some deodorant my deodorant is big so maybe cut a piece off or something without bringing the whole roll.Also i think i have social anxiety disorder so i thought people were talking about me like these 3 girls i thought i overheard them whispering stuff like yea yea she defiantly stinks i might not hear great but im sure people were talking about who stinks.Please answer :) and also by the way for anxiety .

I get scared for nothing(scared of talking sometimes because i don't talk at school or around certain family members besides parents so much that when i talk its all quiet.Sometimes i get sad easily(crybaby like)and its crazy because when i got in trouble when i was like 4 years old i got spankings on my hand and stuff(never hard)but i just laughed or didn't cry at all but now i fear my parents because they threaten to whoop me for bad behavior.That's all i can think of but also i have stuff like skin picking disorder but my parents don't even know about this or the anxiety even though they could of researched about it (eating the skin around my nails because it's kinda thick so it's not like it hurts or getting the nail clippers and cutting it off and eat it.

I eat my nails and even chew them.I have trichotillmania(i been knew i had this but my mom had to research it so she could tell me)don't worry you don't have to tell me to stop because im stopping my mom even told me they're growing back i tried some petroleum jelly once and the next day i say 1 hair grew in even though if i know it works i should use it more often and also i do pluck every once in a while but not into bald spots again.

One last thing was this a panic attack? my dad was irritating me and i finally got fed up and starting yelling back and walking away he just kept following me and yelling at me i started crying going to my mom and she wouldn't back me up not even once even though i back her up so i left and starting crying on the couch in another room and i was crying for like 30 mins the kind of cry when you try to stop but it feels like you can't breath almost(another time he hit me when i was trying to get something out his hair kinda slapped his head he hit me and i got under the covers and cried forever)anyways my mom came in and said honey stop crying your gonna make yourself threw up and i kinda stopped i just had to sniffle.and sometimes when im sleepy or late at night when i get up close to the tv to turn volume up i feel dizzy.