Should I tell my best guy friend how I feel? Or just leave it alone? help!!!?

Ok so here is the deal I have been friends with this guy for the past 4 years. And we didn't really get extremely close until the past 2 years. And over the past year I have started getting major feelings for the guy. I always thought he was cute and extremely nice but just not my type. Because of the whole life style ways he is wilder than I don't know what an alcoholic to be exact and I'm not wild at all I don't even drink... And he is honestly my best friend and I love him more than I can explain. I would do anything for this boy. He is the sweetest man I have ever met.

And honestly I'm sure he knows I like him because everyone on his close friends have noticed the only one that hasn't said anything to me about liking him is his best friend who we are always hanging out with as well. I really wanna ask his friend but I know he will tell him. Plus I don't want things to be awkward between us because he is my best friend and this is why I'm struggling with it so bad. Because even though we live an hour away from one another we talk everyday on the phone and on the weekends I am always at his house hanging out. he has never tried a move on me. but yet he is that type of guy he is. and we tell each other everything he tells me things he won't tell his lifelong best friend and we tell each other we love each other but it's just in a friend way and I know this.

And as bad as I hate being in the friend zone with him i don't want to risk our whole friendship over me wanting to tell him how I feel and making it awkward. Some people read his actions and think he likes me but I don't see it. But I'm positive he knows to some extent how i feel because the last girlfriend he got when he went through his I turned 27 and I don't have a serious relationship and my best friend has a lady phase he just took the first girl that came along that was a **** but he tried his best to hide it from me that he was even considering talking to this girl and finally I had to ask him about it before he woudl even tell me they were dating it only lasted like 4 weeks. and I'm sure he knew it bothered me because I didn't go around him for 6 weeks and I only talked to him on facebook. and when I finally did go back around he was all excited and made me promise to never stay away that long again cause he missed me and things just didn't feel right. Which made me feel good.

But the thing is I know his type of women and i don't fit it at all he likes Medium or smaller girls with blonde hair, nice butt, big boobs, girly girls, and drop dead gorgeous girls he has showed me pics of all his ex's they are beautiful. Me on the other hand I'm short, fat, flatt butt, and pretty but not beautiful model material and I'm not a girly girl. I mean I'm not a tomboy but i'm just not prissy. the only thing I do have he likes in girls is big boobs.

My girl friends think I'm crazy and should just tell him because they think we already act like a married couple i do everything for the boy. Others think I'm crazy and should just move on they asled me did I really want to spend the rest of my life taking care of him? I told them All I know is I really love this boy and I want to spend the rest of my life taking care of him. Even if I have to do it from just being his friend. And watching him with other women and crying in my pillow at night. Because he is the only person in the world who can make me happy on my worst days. And makes me feel like the most amazing woman in the world.

But the thing is I really do like this boy more than any other guy I have had feelings for in my life and it scares the living crap out of me because the one thing I am afraid of in life is not only being rejected but never finding true love as crazy as that may sound. My brother is very protective over me and refuses to let any guy stay around that I like but he has met him and hungout and he said he has never seen me be more happier and my face light up in my life and he knows this boy won't hurt me cause he cares way to much for me he could just tell.

But yet I'm afraid those caring for me feelings are permanently just a caring friend feeling because I struggle with the whole being all cute and flirty and things because i have always been the girl who was known as one of the guys who has more guy friends than girls so therefor i know what guys say behind the girls back and how they make fun of those girls and i swore i would never be that girl but now it is hurting me because now i don't' know if he will ever see me as more than one of the guys.

Please give me your feedback. I need you guys to tell me what u think sometimes u need someone who is not around the situations input... any advice is appreciated..