Will i be able to forgive my dad....continued?

ok so my dad was arrested and i have an order of protection from him n so does my mom n like wen he left the house hes been acting like a real jerk he didnt pay my school for 4 months and he cheated on my mom n he is very violent n he almost hit n like idk i HATE him n i never ever want a relationship with my dad cuz im better off without him but my 'family" from his side keep manipulating us especially my grandma shes like he dying for u he wants to see u n like he crys on the fone for u n my family dont believe me at all that my dad did this n i dont like them either like my cousins n aunts n uncles they understad but not my godmother or my great uncle its so annoying n there very materialistic n like wen im older i wanna show them wat im made of bc they think me n my mom r gunna be in misery my whole life n i wanna be famous n live the good life but then i think bout it so idk but anyways wat should i do n also my dad canceled they electric bill n my mom had to pay like 500 for it so i dont like him he is very manipultive he justs wants to see me so he can beg to come back to the house n that will never happen n he also promised me so many things n i havent gotten a Christmas gift in 6 years nor a birthday gift so imagine waking up every morning n not seeing anything under ur tree i mean other people have it worse but wen im older i want to have like a charity for kids who have been through domestic violence like me n help kids n there families to get help if there spouse abuses them n also to give to kids who r hungry n in need

P.S- what should i do