Angry and sucidal because i'm ugly?

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If you found 'ugly' in the dictionary, the definition would be a picture of me. A revolting, vomit-inducing, disgusting every-day picture of me. I used to look okay, that was until i hit puberty and my face began to deform. My nose is getting bigger. It curves just a little bit is severely asymmetrical.and sometimes it looks like the tip of it does down. the side of my face is absolutely disgusting. l got a cut on my eyebrow and one goes a little more up than the other. l have a boring combination of dark brown hair and brown eyes and pale skin and bags under my eyes.

. Last year i tried to kill myself, but failed. Mum got me all sorts of therapists but i refused to talk to them because i dont want to hear them tell me that i have BDD again because that's bullshit. I do not have Body Dismorphic Disorder, and i do not believe in such a thing. This is real and i'm not going to let them label me as crazy. I'm not going to let some disorder mean that not leaving my house for this long was pointless. That being late for my classes because i took the route that would avoid mirrors and windows was pointless. That's all in my head, because its not, it's all on my face. Its got to the point that i despise my parents for making me this way. l had to quit school because l was too anxious and ugly to go, basically everyone hated me there because l was the ugly girl who looked like a man.

People laugh at me. I was walking home alone and some young boys approached me and started laughing at me saying "you're so attractive" and "i'd love to squeeze that juicy spot on your forehead". I'm a laughing stock and i'm sickening to look at. l will stay home until l get plastic surgery.

Why did this happen to me? what was the point of my existence? I was in hospital last week because i ripped some tendons in my hand after smashing the mirror. What is my life coming to? I want to die, but i fail like i fail at EVERYTHING. I know its not all about appearance, but i dont have a personality either. I'm disgusting. I've stopped eating now because that seems easier than putting a rope around my neck. Do i really need help like they keep saying? Or is it okay for me to want to die because i look this way. I WILL GET SURGERY.

? · Accepted Answer

calm down, puberty does weird things to people. hell, i was ugly too in my teen years- braces, frizzy red hair, acne; the whole she-bang. don't give up. you sound like u have many more years to mature and grow into something beautiful. i know it is hard in this day and age to believe that with all of the bombardment from the media and society to look "pretty", but have a little faith. we all have our imperfections for a reason, i believe. and that reason is to overcome them. 

peace.

Anonymous · Answer

This sounds like a troll post, but w/e

First  of all, if you really wanted to kill yourself you would've already done it. Seriously just go to the 20th story of a building, break the glass, and jump out. Then you won't fail. So don't say your suicidal if everyone knows your too pussy to commit suicide. Now to help you. Maybe the therapists your mom got you are all crappy, but if your mom is offering to take you to a therapist it means someone cares about you. You're lucky. So research good therapists around the place you live, and go there. Be open to what they do, seriously what's the worst that can happen. Either you pay all the money to just sit around, or you do what they ask and it might help. I'm guessing you're a teen, and at that age lots of pretty adults had pimples and looked ugly. You'll grow out of it. Trust me, my really hot guy friend showed me a picture of himself in grade 11, and he looked like the picture definition of an ugly nerd. If you really want plastic surgery get it, but I've seen enough documentaries to come to the conclusion after a week they feel insecure again. So what are you going to do after that? 
Almost everyone has pretty potential, they just don't use it. Maybe try a haircut, try different makeup, or loose/gain some weight.

Anonymous · Answer

forget approximately people who say you're gruesome they probable want interest. Puberty does make you experience unusual as physique adjustments and that. whether, in case you have had one boyfriend you have accomplished better than numerous people. There are a lot uglier people available than you. try asking your acquaintances in the journey that your incredibly or no longer! enable your character shine by and no person won't be able to no longer have a character or we'd all be robots. shop smiling ;]

Gifted · Answer

beauty is in the eye of the beholder.  and sometimes thinking you are ugly really is all in your head.  there are times i look in the mirror and i think i'm incredibly gorgeous, and other times i look hideous because i too have bags under my eyes and my nose is a little bigger than i'd like and my pores are huge and i have some indented acne scars on my chin... must i go on?  my point is, that every single one of us has flaws.... even models and actresses have flaws... we don't necessarily get to see them because they can get photoshopped out or air brushed or the angle of the camera can make an average person look beautiful.  

what i suggest that you do, is find a way to accept your flaws.  and find something about your appearance and your personality that you do like.  and smile, everyone looks prettier when they smile.  that is one of my main motivations for smiling, because i know i look more attractive when i do.  people are attracted to happiness and people that smile.  so work on your attitude... fake it till you make it.... it takes something like 30 days to change a habit... so work on yourself.  it is hard work, but you can change your thinking, you need to find the determination and motivation inside yourself.  really focus and when a bad thought comes into your mind, you need to tell that thought to get lost and counterattack with a positive one.

so try this:  for every negative thought you think about yourself, you need to come up with a positive one.  work on that for 30 days... one day at a time.... what do you have to lose?  i bet you have a lot more to gain! 

good luck!



and p.s.  you didn't show us your picture... maybe you really are as unattractive looking as you think you are... but if your goal is to get plastic surgery... you are still going to need a great personality and attitude to go with your new beautiful face, right?  so.... work on what you can fix right now (attitude and habits) and study hard, so you can get a great job, save your money, and then get plastic surgery..... but a person wtih a beautiful face who has a bad attitude is pretty ugly to me.  an average looking person with a great attitude is much more beautiful and likable.

the most important thing is that you like yourself.  that is why changing your thoughts is key.

Lizz · Answer

Its often the people who are pretty when they are younger who end up being terrible people or really ugly, if your unattractive when your younger you often end up being prettier then you where when your older. You should listen to psychiatrists because they know what they are talking about, there are issues with your brain that make you see things differently then other people see them. for example there is a disease, and people who have it do not realise they have a left side and they often refuse to acknowledge that its there

Anonymous · Answer

ACNE:  
Home remedy: Mix 1 capful of tea tree oil well with 4 capfuls of methyl alcohol (methanol - methylated spirits- SHAKE WELL) and add 15 capfuls of water, to make a 5% mixture. Shake well again immediately before use. Try dabbing a little under your chin, to test for adverse skin reactions, over 24 hrs. Apply on affected areas, daily. Results should be apparent in 2 weeks, if effective in your case. 

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Anonymous · Answer

Teen acme breakout? Get some pro-active or something though its common at adolescences to have pimples I'm sure your face will work itself out after puberty.

Sweety · Answer

hunny, slow down. Suicide is never, ever the answer. I lost someone I knew because they took their life. you will be missed. If you want, talk to a psychologist or therapist. or.... my way 
-take a jar, and on the outside put everything you dont like about yourself. on the inside rip up pieces of paper that says everything you love about yourself. anytime you feel down pull one out and read it.

If you want to talk to me, inbox me. <3

brown eyed girl! · Answer

No! Help is needed! You NEED help! YOU only live life ONCE and don't give it up because some people are arrogant! EVERYONE has something they don't like about themselves like me I hate my nose! Its pointy and I wish I had a smaller nose but I can waste time hating myself or I can accept the way god made me! You are you and there is no one else like YOU! 

Please get some help! :) 
Best wishes!

Courtney · Answer

You have BDD whether you accept it or not!! I have had it for about 7 years...trust me...i know what i'm talking about...and so does your therapist. 
You don't have to be 'pretty' to have BDD

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