I cant get out of this riding rut?

You just need to put in time to polish up your skills. They are probably pretty rusty. You could take some off campus private lessons to get back into it. It will just take time and determination.

I rode all though high school at a pretty high level, but after taking 4+ years off during college I was completely out of riding shape. When I first started riding again it was hard b/c my mind knew what it wanted my body to do, but my body was not in riding shape and couldn't follow through.

It sounds like you just need some more time in the saddle to get back in shape. Ask your trainer if there are horses at the barn that need to be hacked, it could be a good way to help them out and get you back into shape at the same time.

Ask the trainer if he has horses that need exercising and if so that will give you some horses to ride several days a week. I quit riding for several years but did not loose anything but my balance the knowledge was still there,

Each time you ride, before you jump in the saddle, take a deep breath and tell yourself you can do this,. Try journaling about how you use to ride, and how it felt and what you remember experiencing riding.

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