can someone help me? please?

I've heard that love is stronger than the desire to be perfect. But what if the people wanting me to be perfect are my parents and the rest of my family? My mom is upset at me because I won't do soccer anymore to get a letterman's jacket. My dad is mad that i am not no. 1 in my class. My brothers dont see me as theyre equal, and my sisters treat me like a stranger. I am constantly told at school by my peers that i wont suceed atthe things i want to do. I believe that i need help,but im afraid to ask forit because of the possibility that it will cost a lot of money and that my family and peers will see me as weak. Can somebody help me find peace? I havent turned to inflicting pain, instead i pick at my scabs to cause scars. Cutting myself will only result in making people upset and or angry with me. I cant stand to be anythinh but perfect, butnow its killing me on the insiide.