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This may end up being a little long. But i will try to keep it to the point. Alright so i am a girl, age 17 and fear that i have some sort of psychological problem, or multiple. I have done much research and even took AP psychology this past year which may have put the wrong ideas in my head. Anyways, to start out with i get really frustrated when things aren't clean. My room is always spotless and i make my bed each morning, and when i see dust starting to develop anywhere i get in to an immediate cleaning mode. Some days are worse than others, but overall my family is kind of messy and i am always cleaning up after them. I have a routine where i go into the bathroom that i share with my two older brothers and i will sometimes literally get on my hands and knees and scrub the toilet and its surroundings. I have pet peeves with how the way the pillows are arranged on the couches in my house and if theres a table cloth on the dining room table i have to take it off because i just get bothered by it. Tonight i went a little crazy and vacuumed at 10:30 pm because i have been gone for 2 days. I also stuck post it notes around the house stating to "learn how to clean or else" now looking back at that i'm a little scared about myself. Theres other things that i do but i think i got to the point. Another issue i have is anxiety. i am not diagnosed with it neither have i really talked about it with anyone in a serious matter. I try to avoid situations where i know i may end up getting embarrassed. I literally sweat under my arms for no reason at all. I'll put on a shirt in the morning and by the time i get to school i have pit stains.i also hav really shaky hands and a fast heartbeat. At night its really hard for me to get to sleep, i get this paranoid feeling about death, and i feel like my heart stops so i am always checking my pulse. Its strange, i know. Also by the way i literally havent talked to anyone about my concerns, i am an overall popular girl and hang out with friends daily. People think i am a happy beautiful girl but sometimes i really feel like i live a double life. Not to be dramatic but its true. Two days ago it was my birthday and i hate the attention people get for it being their birthday..so much that i just get really annoyed, i told my family not to by me a cake yet they did...i just get angry about it not around my friends but a little to my family. i tend to keep these things to myself..so much so i woke up this morning and i literally couldn't get out of bed because i had such a hard time falling asleep in the first place and i just felt super annoyed for no reason. Sometimes me and my friends joke that i need to put a "do not disturb" sign on me. Anyway when i finally decided i better wake up and do something today i went to the kitchen to make my banana choc chip muffins that everyone loves (also i love to make others happy or impressed even if its out of my way) and i was half way through making them when i realized we were out of eggs. in a quiet,angry,annoyed voice i said "are you kidding me we dont have eggs?" to my mom and didn't let her respond i just dropped everything and walked to my room and slammed the door going to my bed and i just started crying. Sorry for that some what pointless story but im just concerned about myself. Some more things about me are that i have a fear of peanut butter, and nuts in general because im scared if i eat them ill get an allergic reaction, same way goes with medication and pills.Most days i try to keep myself together but there are at least once a week where i just breakdown, not in front of others but to myself. i have thought about suicide but then a minute later i realize how messed up that is and i know i would never take my own life. I just get so down and ignore my phone and try to cry but literally sometimes no tears will come. Are these things a normal part of being a teen or do i need help? Thank you so much if you took the time to read this, i really do appreciate it.

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alright, well you need to know everyones perfect just the way you are and never change for others. change for yourself. im a 15 year old girl by the way, i can relate to some of that stuff, not all but some. like i get angry really easy over stupid stuff and just make myself look like a total jerk which i swear im really not! i try to make everyone happy as much as i can, and its stressful but i still do it,  i cry over the most random crap ever, and my thoughts always get to the best of me. but that other stuff i wouldnt know about, im sorry :/ but you should never think about killing yourself ever!!! ever!  you seem like a great person and you deserve to live :) ive had to deal with my dad tryin to kill himself before and it was really hard on me. so dont do it :) but anyways i think maybe you should go to counseling, i had to before, my mom made me -__- i didnt really like it, but you might :) if you wanna talk to me about anything just umm give me your email or something idk :)

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Oh deary, that was long, but quite interesting.
I dunno if its just me but I love learning about other people's problems and a little about their lifestyle, and the fact that you described some different things that I go through, I know how to connect.

I would honestly call you a bit paranoid. Not to give this as an offensive manner, but I would forget some of those thoughts you had about having a psychological problem. You don't sound crazy to me at all. 
Today actually, I was learning from my Student Government Teacher how everyone has a routine. Sort of a Self learning ritual even if we do things subconsiously, still it is what we do. 
For example, some people when they wake up in the morning, go to the bathroom right away, others eat right away, and others stare at the wall for 5 minutes.
It sounds like you have created a ritual of making your bed and keeping your room spotless, which these aren't bad things.
You may have a case of OCD, which requires you to have everything clean around you. Which isn't a problem either. However you may want to consult your parents or someone you trust about this, it is curable. Or at least to a point where they can help you tone it down a bit.
With things such as having mixed emotions, the muffin situation, being annoyed for no reason...well those are some things teens go through. Believe it or not your still a teen, even if you are an older teen, you still are one. Teens and some adults cry when they don't feel like it, get mad for no reason, and have a tendency to be more clean than others.
Which is no big deal.
The peanut butter deal sounds totally normal to me too, some people have fears of things but in different cases. It makes sense. 
This all could be a phase or it could be just you.
I have issues with some of these things, and I'm perfectly normal.
I wouldn't worry too much about it. But if it makes you feel better go see a counselor or talk to someone and let these feelings out it is never good to keep them bottled up. This can only cause more stress!
I hope I helped!

Rixik · Answer

Hey seriously don't worry about it, its just a phase, you'll one day realize that your just being silly and over thinking it, yeah you may be a bit precautions but no ones perfect. the fits are a normal thing for any teenager, and the wanting things clean is too, everyone has pet peeves. so please don't assume there's something wrong with you when there really isn't. just try to relax and have some fun alright? and fyi, if u go to a psychologist and try to get "help" unless you go to a completely honest one you know very well, they will try to always find something wrong with you when there really isn't, so unless you find it absolutely necessary, then go ahead, but i'm just giving u a heads up.

Anonymous · Answer

Don't worry girl it is all part of growing up someday someone will like you for who you are just wait for them to come. But Back to the Point Everybody grows up different i sometimes have moments where im a feel like a rock star but out of the blue i break down and cry so don't worry. It is the Stress of being a teen.

Anonymous · Answer

Sorry I read about 1/2 of this and I got really bord. But I suggest going to a doctor to get diagnosed and maybe there is something that he can do to help you.

Anonymous · Answer

i am sorry i tried to read it all i got half way it is to hard to read maybe next time brake it up just a little i wish i could help but to much reading for 2:30 am

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LovinTheGhanj · Answer

idk im no doctor. dont expect to find accurate diagnosises(cant spell) on this site.

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