What is the most emotionally painful thing to happen to you?

After hating my grandmother all my life because of her abuse, she ended up in the hospital cuz of her kidneys and she died and I never got a chane to tell her that I was sorry for all the hell I put her through. And ecause my mom used to do drugs, my sisters and I were taken away from her and I haven't lived with her since I was 2. I haven't seen my sisters and mom in about four years because they live back in Texas. I didn't know who my dad was til I was in 6th grade an never lived him with him til I was about 13 and about to start 8th. On top of all that I'm 18 and with a man I love who I'm gonn marry an my dad doesn't like him because "he's white and white ppl don't know what hard work is and he'll never make anything out of himself". So now that I live with my fiancé I still visit my dad but I couldn't celebrate thanksgiving with my dad and stepmom because I wanted him to go. And I'll be going to their house for Christmas by myself. And my dad possibly won't be in my wedding. I deal just by realising that as long as I'm happy, that's all that matters

I've got a lot going on as well right now, so just know that you're not alone. It's comforting for me knowing that I'm not the only one suffering right now but it also sucks because people shouldn't have to go through some things. The way I'm dealing with it at the moment is forcing myself to be optimistic. Make yourself believe that things always get better in the end because it's true. Oh and watching funny videos or listening to upbeat songs helps too. :)

Some good quotes to remember:

"Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end yet."

"Face it, feelings are mutable, and an emotion that seems permanent one minute could be a distant memory the next. Instead of focusing on what could be, figure out what really is and then make your move with haste."

The most painful thing i have ever witnessed is probably when my Mom and Dad got into a MAJOR argument (My mom pulled a knife on my dad, when she did that he took his gun and pointed at her and mom mom took my 2 year old brother to use as a shield) and watching this was painful but the worst was when my mom took off and loaded Madden, Tyler, Dakoda, Kaden, and Keegan into the car and drove off, i chased after the car and she didn't even look back. Most people think that i am so upset about that because my mother didn't offer to take me, that's not true, this upset me because she took my brothers with her, now my parents are divorced and remarried, and i hardly see any of my brothers other than Leland, but he lives with me, my dad, and step mom. I see the others about twice a month. It breaks my heart, it really does.

But i understand how you feel, and you can't look at the bright side 24/7, sometimes it's okay to just feel sorry for yourself, as long as it's only once in a while and not all of the time, it's good for you.

I lost my virginity at this party when I was 14. I don't know who the guy was, and it happened in the boys bathroom. Anyway, about three weeks later I missed a period, then a month after I missed it again. So I bought three pregnancy testsmand took one. It was positive. The next day I took another one and it too was positive. I went to my local clinic a few days later to check, and the varied I was pregnant. I had no idea what to do, or think. Then, 3 months pregnant and still hadn't told anyone, I bled. When I finally got myself (alone) to the hospital, they told me I had miscarried. I was heartbroken. Even though I was young and not ready to be a mother, no one deserve to lose a child like that. The worst thing was while I was depressed, no one knew about the baby so I had to pretend that nothing had happened. Now, 16, I am pregnant again. Most people see me as stupid for keeping it, or even getting pregnant, but I see it as a second chance. It took me so long to get other the miscarriage that this just seemed like a mirical that I couldn't get rid of..

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i was hospitalized because I had a manic episode where I thought my family and i were harry potter characters. I spent two weeks in the hospital before they diagnosed me with bipolar disorder, then spent another two weeks at home and hospital. But I came through and I was able to go back to school and graduate with my class.

First dog dying from cancer the day after she was diagnosed, my grand pa getting cancer, my uncle being hospitalized for a year after a car accident, everything to do with my dad......