What Am I Going Through? Desperate For Help!?

The only and best thing u can do is come 2 terms with who u are..'A GIRL',unless u have a sex change which is probably the worst thing u could even think of..Come 2 good terms with urself and ur body..Know that guys have it as much as you do and being a guy wont give u ur sweet escape..So if u wer a guy then what? All ur troubles will suddenly go away? Definately no..If people are able 2 love and accept u 4 who u are,then why cant u??

It's called transsexualism, and you would be a female-to-male transsexual. It's perfectly okay, even though a lot of people might try to tell you it's not.

If you want someone to talk to about it, feel free to email me. I'm a transman myself, so I know what you're going through. I actually just started the transition process (how you make your body look male instead of female); I'm in college, living as a guy full-time there, though I have to put up with an insult or two to my masculinity when I come "home" from college and live with my parents during breaks, as they still refuse to acknowledge me as male. I can also help you sort of if you want to transition, and if you do, when and how you might go about that.

Don't worry, you're not alone, and there are ways to feel better. It's only a matter of time (okay, money too, but you can work on that one).

The self-identification as the opposite gender is called gender dysphoria. This is still classified as a mental illness by the American Psychiatric Association.

I mention this not in judgement, but to enlighten.

Also, you don't mention your age, but I would guess young. My advice, it is not uncommon to experience sexual experimentation and identity confusion at this age. But remember, this is a chaotic and confused time. Don't be too quick to label yourself, as you will be living with the consequences.

Find a competent person to talk to about this. Not anyone who condemns or encourages but an objective, responsible person who can help you understand your confusion.

We are so much more than gender labels, sexual desires, what music we like or what foods we eat. You are first and foremost a person, trying to understand the world and your place in it. Be careful, and take your time. You are worth it.