Toshiko Hayashi

Okay, so I'm a girl, but I absolutely hate it! I want to be a boy. Like, I hate wearing makeup and dresses and basically anything "girly". I like to wear boys clothes, and stuff like that. I like to keep my hair shoulder length or shorter. Anything longer just makes me sick.

I hate when people call me by my real name, Haylee. Or when they even refer to me as "her", "she" "Ma'am" and crap like that.

I'm bisexual, but I enjoy being with girls more than guys.

And whenever I see a guy or something, I just feel so jealous and mad with my gender.

I just hate being a girl so much, and I've felt like this for about four years. I can't really talk to anyone about this, since my parents wouldn't understand this kind of thing, and I only have about two close friends.

I believe that I really am a boy trapped in a girls' body.

And I have no idea what to do..please, help me..

My 13th birthday party is next year, but I'm gonna start planning now since my mom wants to throw a big party because I will officially be a teenager xD

But, anyway, I want it to be a bit "darker". If you know what I mean

Like, the cake black and grey.

I just need some decoration ideas. Like, with lace and other "gothic" items.

Also, if anybody has a nice outfit I could wear.

Maybe a fun, dark party dress?

If you have a link, it would be very appreciated if you could post the link

And any good music? I was thinking about just playing some music from my favorite bands like Evanescence or something.

But, I just want to see if any of you have anymore good ideas

Thanks :)

I'm 12 and my birthday was today so I asked my mom for a lip piercing. She said she would consider it since I have been helping around the house and such.

I just wanted to ask a couple questions about this topic.

First off, what would my teachers/principal/coaches think?

I am a good kid, my grades are extremely high, the teachers like me, I just hope that a lip ring doesn't effect their opinion on me.

Would people think I'm "trashy"?

I'm not "trashy". I'm far from it & I would not like people thinking I am.

Can my teachers/principal tell me to take it out?

This is what I'm worried about most. I don't want to go to school & the teachers force me to take my lip ring out.

I'm planning on wearing a clear lip ring, but as the time goes, I will start to wear different jewelery.

So, thank you in advance for answering my questions.

Oh, and if you don't have anything nice to say, please don't say it at all.

Yes, I know this will leave scars & I might regret it in the future, but piercings fascinate me & I am planning to get much more.

Thank you :)

~Toshiko

I love the music I listen to, but I would like more to listen to :)

I like stuff like NeverShoutNever, Black Veil Brides, Bring Me The Horizon, Blood On The Dance Floor, Plug-In Stereo, Cady Groves, Owl City, Linkin Park, All Time Low, and The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.

So, if anyone can recommend some good music that is similar to those, that would be much appreciated.

I am in love with Tom Felton and I would love to send him a fan letter. So, if anyone has his fan mail address, can you please tell me? :)

I would also like it if you gave me other ways to contact him. (But, not his personal phone number or anything like that, because I respect his privacy) :D

Thank you

~Toshiko

I am going away for the summer and while I am gone, my mom decided she is going to decorate my bedroom for a birthday present. I told her I wanted a Harry Potter theme (I'm obsessed with HP), but we can't paint anything since we rented our house.

So, I would love some ideas to show my mom to make my room look like HP themed.

If you know about any stores that might sell some things that kinda relate to Harry Potter, please tell me :)

Any ideas to make my room look awesome!

Thank you so much

~Toshiko

I decided to make a Youtube account and I don't have any username ideas.

My name is Toshiko

I love Kpop and Jrock

I would like it if the username just consisted of letters that stand for something.

Like initials

But, if you do that, make sure you tell me what it means so I can know

Thank you for your answers <3