Christian perspectives plz...I'm 26...yes its kinda long, but that increases ur chance for pts!!?

There's a firefighter/EMT, going to school, has a child that doesn't live here, but he loves him (I'm okay with that situation), divorced and has a relationship with Jesus (he's open about that and professes his faith). I met him through my brother-in-law who volunteers at the fire dept. We spent 3 1/2 REALLY fun and great weeks together, No physical touching AT ALL. We didn't want to rush things in the least so we both just wanted to be friends to start with. Hockey/football games, movies at my house with my family, HIS church (yay!), Fire Dept Christmas get togethers etc.

He had went home to visit his mother and brother and he had asked me to send a picture of me. His brother (who I haven't met yet) asked him to ask me what my intentions are for his brother to which I stated, "To get to know each other better and see where God leads it" and my firefighter that was our plan agreed as well. He said his mom and brother approve of me. I then told him my parents do as well. He invited me to dinner with his "adopted" family here and to his church as well. He also wanted to spend even MORE time with me and invite me to coffee before we did all that.

That night at the Christmas party we went to I could see he was going through some kind of turmoil about going to ANOTHER station's party to make an appearance. He chose to go...alone...(I was ok with that...rude to take a date last minute with no heads up to them) so I dropped him off back at his station and went home. Well...I got a text at 2am and he said he wouldn't be "ready for church" that morning. I asked if we were going at all that week and then realized they only have one service, so I said, "Never mind I understand". He explained he had too much to drink and wouldn't be able to go. I just said, "alright". Well he didn't text me for a week.

I had already bought him a present because we were supposed to spend Christmas night together, so I took it to the station since plans had obviously changed. He later texted and said, "I kinda feel like a big jerk, but I feel like I still need to say thank you." I just said, "You're very welcome :))" so that he would understand that I'm not angry (however I was slightly disappointed and hurt, but not angry) He hasn't texted since and I was wondering if maybe you think he feels embarrassed. I'd like to text and have him give me SOME kind of idea if he still wants to be friends or what, but I also don't want to start things up if he's not the one God has for me. He did say in that text, "I feel horrible, but I have a bad habit of doing this". I see a bit of a red flag, but I also very much still like him and enjoy his company. In the 3 1/2 I didn't see signs of drunkenness going on. Any advice or ideas on this one?