Why exactly would you care whether your family accepts you or not? Whether anyone accepts you or not?

Well most people, specially young adults see their parents as what they are their caretakers. If someone that is suppose to give a damn about you doesn't, Degrades you every single moment and harasses you mentally or otherwise it can break a person down.

Imagine this, a Kid is Degraded, Harassed and mental raped in school and goes home to an alcoholic mother and a dead beat father that does nothing but degrades, harassed and mentally rapes them more. There would be absolutely no escape you get my point?

Or You could take it from a sexuality/Gender Identity stance in which the kid tries hard not to get outed at school which puts a lot of pressure just to finally come out to their family to have them think they are possessed by the devil and think they are diseased. Once again, no escape.

Noted: Yea those who aren't emotionally depended to something or someone are utterly pathetic dear I'd like to point that out. If you want to get on your "I've been through this and worse and I made gold" fine, but we're not all like you are we? As I said, if your not Emotionally Depended on someone or something. You are Utterly Pathetic and need mental help...

I am the kind of person that hates people disliking me. I like the feeling that i have people who will be there for me watch out for me. So i attempt to be nice to everyone to have someone by my side. I recently moved to a new school like 5 months ago. I can be amazingly nice to these people but get nothing in return, i live my life on the love of others but when i get none, well it's like not living. My family has screwed up big time, it will never be a considerably happy family, ever, i am not accepted by my family, i stand out because i am the only one with a different dad but it's not like that matters because even he didn't stick around. My parents (step dad and mum) seem to be against me, or i have something wrong with me, i can't be present for 5 minutes with out accidentally dropping myself into an argument. Not accepted by spoilt snobby brats at school, i can take that, not accepted by the family, that just kills. I actually only had one source of acceptance, from this guy who could make my day just by one message, so through out the whole day in school i sit there smiling staring down at each text, at home i am on webcam to him & at weekends i am meeting with him. But even he recently has suddenly and randomly been turned off by me, no longer interested. So now i just stare at my phone, waiting for a message in reply, small talk is all he can give me now. I just don't understand why over night i'm no longer the person who makes him skip a heart beat when hearing my name, because hearing his make the butterfly's in my belly do back flips. That is why i need to be accepted by someone, because else i'm alone. I'm unique, too unique, there's no one even with the same blood as me or someone who i can call a friend at my school but there's always a guy & always the days of looking back on the amazing, full of laughter conversations.

Did i clarify my reason enough?

Due to coming out of the closet when I was 13, I was dumped by the majority of my family almost 30 years ago, and let me tell you it feels really shitty, but it helped me over the years to not make others feel like that. No one should have to feel abandoned, like they are a waste of space, EVER.