Why do I look at boys as potential boyfriends?

HI,

So basically I know like no boys till like yesterday

My home environment is female only

I go to a girl's school

My mum is sooo strict with me going out, like I barely go out with my friends

Has that got anything to do with the fact that EVERYTIME i talk to a boy, the only thing on my mind is, is he a potential bf??

I know this sounds really desperate but i'd like to like a guy because i like him rather than because he's a boy

Im also confused as to as if im bi?? or even les?

I mean I've had times when hugging or being near certain girls give me a buzz

Like i would feel the need to kiss girl because i want to know if it would be good

Erm the other thing is - I ve had really rocky stuff happen with boys/men, to the point it makes me wonder if I'll ever be able to love a guy or if its always going to be about the physical??

Any views, ideas will be accepted - if its easier skype me (pleasedontditcheme)