the higgs boson particle, possible a photon in disguise?

Some time ago, in a magazine in a deep pile in a stack in my studio, maybe it was sci-am or discover or omni or some such thing, I saw an illustration that has haunted me for 20 some odd years, it was a practical illustration of a ball breaking out of a computer monitor, perhaps some of you recall this. Well Since the "Higgs Boson" particle has become such an issue I have had a theory os a particle that can travel faster than time but only for the tiniest portion of a nano second, meaning it would have to expand to an enormous size and then either explode or evaporate, in so doing (especially in a facility like cern) it would certainly explain and explosion in the magnetic ring before the particle got to one of the two staions for collecting, you have to recall the the two beams that run in opposite directions are only kept in line by a magnetic field but if two particles somehow fell out of the field by accident for whatever the cause might be and hit each other, the colision force would be enourmous and the lone particle would be immense.....so does anyone think the Higgs Boson could be a ordinary particle like a photon that has gathered more mass than normal or in a different state of flux or happenstance?....cuz if this is the case,...the Higgs Boson would be very rare indeed on earth but possibly very common near a quasar or pulsar.....anybody agree?......or does this just seem crazy? cuz I have other ideas about ordinary particles who then camoflage themselve's as other particles in certain situations.....I'm no supporter of string thoery or the big bang though I'm a supporter on the here and now and curious about what particles might exists on the very smallest of scales, things we cannot detect because our machines are so incredibly big. I think we need to build a bigger accelerator with larger dectotors and incredibly smaller camera types in every spectrum.