Can I be 100% sure I'm a lesbian?

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This is why I think I'm lesbian...

Early Life:
- When my Dad first told me what "gay" meant (I was between 3 and 5 years old), I immediately got excited and said that I wanted to be with a girl. What's creepy is that I remember that moment very clearly and that I actually pictured having a girl in bed with me, naked, and thought it sounded nice (I didn't know what sex was, but I was smart enough to know that spouses slept in the same bed, oftentimes unclothed)
- From ages 6-10, I kept drawing girls completely naked or nearly naked, but justified this by saying that it's not bad since I'm a girl myself. I never drew a boy missing any article of clothing however, not even a shirt or pair of shoes, because I thought it was gross.
- Throughout elementary school, I would develop an extreme stalker-ish obsession with a certain girl, even if I didn't know her very much at all
- I kept daydreaming about what it'd be like to be a boy and kiss a girl

Middle School:
- Sometimes I thought I liked a boy, but it was always only really either admiration or jealousy (no romantic/sexual feelings whatsoever) -- more like "You're cool. I want to be more like you" as opposed to "I want to be WITH you."
- I never understood why a girl would want sex with a boy or want to date/kiss a boy -- I assumed I'd get feelings eventually and that I was too young/the hormones haven't kicked in yet, even though I was getting the urge to masturbate a lot
- Whenever a watched a movie/read a book with a female character that I liked, I always ended up imagining being a male character and falling in love with her or kissing her or something -- when I tried to block it out, I only had dreams about it after I fell asleep
- I would always associate with the male protagonist of a story
- I would often wish I was a boy, even though I like girl things too
- WARNING: This will sound extremely weird -- Whenever I masturbated, I loved to stimulate my clit with one hand, while pressing the other one close against my private area, curling it into a fist, and pressing/kneading/jabbing it against an object (like the mattress, sheets, pillow, stuffed animal, etc.), which gave me a feeling of ******* something ----> That is to say, I imagined doing this to a girl -----> And it was the fastest way for me to get an orgasm
- I would also create just about a gazillion online accounts on various sites, pretending to be a boy and hitting on girls/saying pervy things about girls with other guys. It gave me a weird form of satisfaction and pleasure.
- A girl asked me if I was lesbian once and I completely freaked out (I disliked her anyway)-- I immediately exclaimed "NO!!" and started ranting about how just because I'm not into guys doesn't necessarily mean I'm interested in girls. However, after this, I couldn't shake the feeling that I was lying

Highschool (as of now, I'm a freshman, age 15):
- I feel stiff and awkward around girls now, but I don't feel this way around guys
- Whenever another girl touches me, an weird sensation runs through me
- Nearly all of my sexual fantasies are about girls
- I can easily imagine myself having a wife
- I tried watching straight porn, because I knew a lot of people were doing it and I got curious. It both disgusted me and kind of bored me after a while. But then I tried watching lesbian porn and immediately, I felt this uncontrollable urge to start masturbating so I did and it was amazing. I never orgasmed so much in my entire life. I ended up drooling all over my pillow though.
- I think I'm getting addicted to lesbian porn...I've been watching it every night lately
- I'm getting the urge to masturbate much more often, and always to pictures/videos of women and lesbians or just my own sick, erotic fantasies
- I check out girls and their butts, breasts, and legs whenever I don't they're looking

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I'VE NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON A PARTICULAR GIRL THOUGH! What does this mean? D:

------> So, I suppose the big question is...Can I be 100% sure I'm a lesbian?
I don't want to come out then realize that I was delusional and this was all in my head...
What if I say I'm a lesbian but I'm really straight and I'm just going through a phase?

I'm really scared. Am I really a lesbian?
Advice?

Elizard · Accepted Answer

Kid you are severely overthinking this. If you have a crush on a girl, great. If you have a crush on a guy, great. Until then, stop freaking out, jesus christ. It is not that big of a deal.

? · Answer

I think you could be 100% sure, but right now you're kinda doubting yourself because you know it's not normal by society standards. 
If it was just a phase, then you wouldn't have been feeling this way all the way back to when you were little.
You could be in denial, and the girls around you might not be your "type" (like they're all too bitchy or they don't have a certain personality quality). 
I'm going through the same thing. all I can really say is relax, and keep going forward. I would recommend against coming out as in telling everyone, because they won't all be open minded. 
but you don't have to lie. 
Just find some supportive friends/family members, and have fun with your life. you don't have to have everything figured out right now :)

Opaque · Answer

Hey hun don't be scared about being homosexual. It really isn't a bad thing, sure some people don't approve of it, but that's just because of ignorance. It's fine to have an ttraction to girls, I do, I'm bi though. I find myself attracted to both male and females. Honestly you can't be ashamed of yourself for being attracted to girls, it's totally natural. I's scary, yes, I remember when I started developing those feelings, I was so scared, of how society would react, of how my family would react. You're first priority is to know what you want and what makes you happy, don't let anyone tell you how you feel is wrong or any of that crap. I think you're a lesbian, unless you can manage to imagine yourself being ain a relationship with a boy, even if you can I think you could be bi. You don't have to label yourself though. You aren't defined by your sexuality, gay or straight, doesnt make you bad or good. Just be comfortable with yourself. Take a deep breath and organize your thoughts:)

Anonymous · Answer

You don't have to label yourself. 
There are many labels out there, and even though might think you fit into the term "lesbian", you can never be sure. 

Think about it as in: Make your own label about yourself :3

Watch this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-qN9Jvy_0Mw

Sorry for being so "not understandable" and for the bad english :C
hope it helped :D

Thomas · Answer

well it seems your a lesbian but you can never be 100 percent, one day you may just see a male that you really like.

Anonymous · Answer

Honey, if you ain't you oughtta be

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