It is my b-day today but I don't like it I am getting old feel depressed why?

Yeah I know. Will be 44 this year and though it doesn't depress me it does piss me off!

I don't look, feel or act my age whatsoever so WHY must I delve into this BS of aging? What I mean to say is I know this body can't live forever, but there is just so much damn more to do, see, experience, explore etc etc. Just not enough time.

Ah well, maybe beyond this life there will be something even better! Till then I suggest folk like you and I keep right on enjoying what we can whilst here.

You have 40s fatigue. The decade of one's 40s is a period of feeling older, facing limitations, losing certain capacities, encountering a bored-with-life feeling and generally dealing with whatever it is that one might call one's problems. You're nearing the end, however, and your 50s will be much more fun than the decade you're plodding through now. Hopefully, you've faced certain realities about yourself and have taken steps to improve your life and health. In 20 years, you'll be reading travel brochures and planning that trip around the world. In short, you're just going through a phase, though a long one. Happy Birthday from everyone who sees you as better than you see yourself.

Accepted for what it's. So that means it's about time for you to love yourself and start doing things that makes you feel good, which means no drug or alcohol. just live it up, as well as being nicer to people in general, you'll be loved back

that what my feeling too few years back, but i technique to fight it is to cherished whose who love me, from my family to my little kitten, I don't look back from the past that will never come back, just look at the future and look for things that you like and hold on into it.

This is called a midlife crises, just look into the future, don't look back.