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Do i have a personality disorder?
I've felt like something was wrong for quite a while now, and I'm probably going to sound stupid, and end up getting mad at myself again and deleting the dumb question but.. I might as well ask.
I'm absolutly terrified of being judged, thought of poorly, ect. so unless i have to, i usually avoid contact with people. I'll talk to somebody if they talk to me first, but i'll usually not have much to say. I don't say anything because i'm afraid of what they'll think.
I allmost NEVER believe anybody when they complement me, and i tend to assume that everybody hates me even if i know they don't i just do. I don't even talk to them, but i still assume they hate me, i don't know why.
I'll dress weird, and i don't seem to mind of somebody comments on the way i look but if i do something other than dressing differently and somebody comments on it i'll hate myself for doing that. I've even hurt myself for doing stupid things before, and i usually think that everything i do is stupid which it is.
I allways think that everything i do is ****. Everything that i've ever done, and that all i do is cause trouble to everybody else when people are so nice to me. And if i say things like that i feel like im being stupid and only doing it for attention even if im not, but i probably am..
I have panic attacks allot, too
And i don't think its very normal to have panic attacks often but i do and i don't know why.
I usually draw, or read, or text the only person that will talk to my for more than 5 minuets to avoid interacting with anybody else. If i'm ever called out by a teacher like to answer a question i say things really quiet hoping that nobody will hear me.
I saw some other people including things like this in questions kind of like this so.. I guess i'll include things like that
I have friends, but i only really trust one. He's pretty much the only person i really talk to and we're really close we pretend we're brother and sister.
I've never really had many friends.
If i'm ever with friends, i'm fine and i talk to them like anybody other person would talk to people.
When i was little i thought that i had allot of friends and even though they weren't too nice to me i still thought they liked me but eventually they all started to be mean to me, and they started avoiding me and ignoring me. They would say bad things about me, i could hear them sometimes. After i finally figured out that they weren't ever really my friends i stopped talking to people. i was afraid of being rejected.
My dad was usually at work, so i never saw him often but now that hes lost his job he's home and most times my mom and i come home to find him drunk or something. My parents are fighting more now than they used to, and my mom said that she wishes him dead sometimes, and that she doesn't divorce him because she doesn't make enough money for us to live on our own.
I don't know if thats going to help at all, probably not but.. oh well
I heard that you have to be 18 to be diagnosed with a personality disorder, but i don't know
I just feel kind of like something is wrong with me
I probably don't have a personality disorder but i guess it wouldn't hurt to ask and its not like anybody is going to know who i actually am anyways so
I don't know
if it sounds like i have a personality disorder i guess it would be great if you could tell me
if not just don't bother saying anything, if i don't get any answers i'll know i don't have one.
Thanks
1 Answer
- 9 years ago
I think you might have something called BPD along with social anxiety. This is Borderline Personaity Disorder. It makes you feel very depressed and worthless. You say you don't make eye contact and avoid people. This is probably linked to the bullying when you were younger. Part of BPD is difficulty creating relationships (friendship or love) with other people. Basically your socially isolating yourself from other people because you feel worthless and depressed and anxious.
I would advise seeing a doctor and being referred to a psychologist or psychiatrist. They can help you by looking at your life in depth (people with BPD have often undergone a traumatic or bad experience during childhood) and using medication.
I hope this helps. Read the link and it will explain all about BPD. I think it will be very relavant to what you're experiencing. You do have to be over 18 to be diagnosed with this however in severe cases, they do diagnose you if your under 18.