is this rap any good?

lately i been feelin like i cant live up to all these expectations/

and maybe i cant reach the dreams im chasin/

problems im facin just keep on piling/

i saw my moma cryin and i caused it/

she said im addicted and ive lost it/

im just a **** up, i steady disappoint those that i love/

i break every ****** thing that i touch/

and every time i look in your eyes i see disgust, i lost your trust/

and i hate it,but im jaded/

bout to go emotionally numb, like pain pills feel/

(chorus)

i hit the blunt to ease the pain/

sip the cup to free my brain/

pop the pills and float away/

i go numb my mind goes blank/

**** the sun ill take the rain/

days and nights all look the same/

but i-wont-change/

its unfinished but so far how does it look?