I hate myself somtimes.?

I'm a bit of a control freak sometimes, nothing has to be tidy, it just has to be the way I want it. I learned to scale that down a bit to just my bedroom. I'm also a perfectionist, so if it's not perfect I give up because i'm also very lazy. Im also a top procrastinator, so i will hold off as long as possible till I have to do something. I hate most things about my appearance, I'm a musician but i hate my voice, I hate the fact that I'm not skinny, tanned, beautiful, talented. I've been hating on myself for such a long time, that I've learned to live with myself the way I am. I know for a fact that I'm not perfect, nor will I ever even be close to it, so when people disrespect me, I throw it back in their faces. I may not be my biggest fan, but I know that I am a kind, loving, person, and I have a nice personality. And someone WILL appreciate me for me one day. And someone WILL love you for you. No one is ever completely happy with themselves. One of my friends is a musician. I love him, he doesn't know it, but I do. He IS perfect in every way, but he hates every single thing I love. And he has so many girls latching onto him at concerts. So believe me :)

You need to relax, breathe, and know that everyone makes mistakes. You're about 10% less efficient when under pressure, so if you mess something up, take a bit to relax and think over your next steps. If you aren't sure about what to do, ask someone that can help. There's no shame in needing help, and if it will prevent you from messing up, do it! I'm good for bouncing ideas off of, so you can e-mail me if you want.