I am 14 but I feel like an adult?

I am only fourteen years old as of June of 2012 but I feel like an adult trapped in a teen's body. I don't relate to anybody my age at all. In fact, I think that all teens/people my age are bullheaded cretins and I want nothing to do with them. All the guys care about: sports, hooking up, girls. All the girls care about: looking hot, looking sexy, shopping, celebrities, boys, and "OMG FACEBOOK YOU GUYS LMAOOO!" and #patheticandjuvenilehashtags.

I am just so damn over it.

My mom and my family in general mean well, but they just don't understand why I do what I do and they really wish I was someone else. Y'know, a "cool teen" or whatever the hell.

Mostly I do things alone. I read classic literature (Lord of The Flies, Romeo and Juliet, The Iliad, Huckelberry Finn, Hunchback of Notre Dame, Cousin Bette, Treasure Island. Y'know, those books kids my age find boring), play vintage video games (Sonic The Hedgehog: Remastered), listen to old music & new indie/alternative (I love the Beatles and Chicago, but No Doubt is awesome. And have you ever heard of Marina and the Diamonds? Nova Mob? Belle & Sebastian?) dress like an old lady (I love mom jeans and I loathe skinny jeans. Leather shoes rock, especially if the are the color brown. I also love anything resembling a 1920's flapper, 90's grunge, and ironic t-shirts. Oh, and I only wear red matte lipstick OR dark plum lip stain. I shop at the Goodwill. Almost every day.) I hate anything modern and I even use old slang like "Psychedelic!" or "Rad!" and sometimes "Totally!" I don't watch popular kid TV. I watch Daria reruns, Warren the Ape reruns, Adult Swim and "little kid" shows like Max & Ruby, Jake and the Neverland Pirates, Sesame Street, and virtually every single Disney Animated Movie/Series. Especially the ones from the 90's and early 2000's.

I don't have low self-esteem, I have a low esteem of everybody else. I definitely possess an "I'm Surrounded by Idiots!" attitude to life, as I think that trying to be popular anywhere is stupid, as you are not going to be on earth very long, so why try to be like someone else when you could just be you, the self you are most comfortable with?

Now here's the dark side of me, and a little history, if you will.

I do have anger issues and I am trying to work on it but everywhere I turn I see something that makes me angry. If someone gets me really angry I erupt into a screaming fit.

I was abused as a child by my father and now I am living with my mother who always takes care of me, and means well. As a little kid I was always picked on at school, and whenever I was in the fifth grade or so, the bullying really escalated. I started to fantasize about suicide and downing a bottle of pills, and when I was almost 12 I came close to trying.

Well. I ended up in a mental hospital.

I recuperated.

I came back to the real world, where everyone teased me about having cancer/being on crack because I pulled some of my hair out in a fit of insanity.

I went to therapy. Lots of it. I'm "better" now, but while I no longer have suicidal thoughts, my thoughts have become pretty macabre and sometimes intensely sexual. Other times the are quite cynical. Other times communist/socialist.

I think this is the part of me that does not function well as a child/teen.

All I really want is to be part of the adult world, a place, a utopia where people understand me and I can feel whole again.

I'll admit I have turned to drinking, but I am controlling it. A little vodka in green tea here, and there. I've only had 1 drink a day (and it's not that much alcohol, only one waterbottle cap-ful) every 3 days, every week (except last week) I've been doing this for a month now.

All I wanna know by this is, do you think I'm adult/mature, do I have a serious problem, do I come off as conceited/arrogant, is it sane for me to think what I do, and would you be friends with me if you knew me?

Thanks for reading this unbearably looooong question.