If you truly love something set it free?

She was really hurt when I found read messages on her friends account of her saying she only liked me as a friend. I felt really hurt and ignored her for three days. I thought that after all he kissing, holding hands, ice skating, movies, dinners, meeting her family, and all the activities we did including us buying each other gifts and writing poems and letters that she liked me a lot. Howeve she lied to her friend because since she has a really strict family she doesn't want any chance of "us" getting back to her mother. She was really upset by me ignoring her and couldn't eat and was constantly wondering why I wasn't talking to her. She told me this and I felt bad. Now she wants to take everything down a notch. So we basically are in an open relationship. We never officially dated because of the strict rules she's forced to live under. she told both her friends how she would want a bf like me and basically would date me but because of her mom she can't. She's 14 and Im 16. But I regret ignoring her now because she claimed that she opened up her whole heart to me and got hurt. so now she has to protect herself. but she still likes me a lot. SHe said I can cheek kiss her but not lip. I can hold her hand when her mom isn't there, and do everything friends do. I remember before we did everything couple did. we would have condos of texting kisses nd hearts but I hurt her and I soooo regret it. BUt I was mad and didn't want to talk to her. She wishes I communicate better. Also she knows she can't date but admits that even if she does like another guy she knows that no way he can match up to me. so the good thing about it is that she's not going to have a boyfriend for high school even though a lot of boys want to try to grind with her or try to like her but she knows that essentialy Im the "gold prize".

Plus she find stem immature and sagging there pants all the time. However she encourages me to go and find other girlfriends and sometimes makes a joke to of it. but i told her why she does it and it makes me feel like she is pushing me away and doesn't like me. he says it s because since she can't date me, she doesn't want to feel like she's holding me back. so she wants for me to go out, have girlfriends and do what i want with them. In the mean time she can be like a friend giving me advice on it. Then when we are both ready and we still like each other when she's 18 and Im single, we can date then which is basically what she said. Im my crush's first kiss and she really wants to make sure her first boyfriend is the only boyfriend she has and I know she can see that in me which is why she has such a high price on my head. So she basically says that after I'm done, to come back to her because she doesn't want for us to date now and she isn't ready. She believes in the "if you truly love something set it free, it was meant to be it will come back". She gets a lot of advice from her female relatives. She doesn't want to kiss me because she says that kissing me is addictive and she will get too attached again.