Why am i so depressed?

My mom brought me to a few therapy sessions because i was feeling so bad about myself. my therapist left that office and i havnt seen a thereapist more than 5 times in a course of 2 months. i have no one to talk to now.

my mom asks me why are you depressed, why do u cut yourself. and i dont really have an answer. do i deserve to feel this way? why am i so depressed and feel so bad all the time??

recently my best friend and i went through a tramatic thing whic i wont mention, and her mother made us never speak again. i havnt talked or seen her in months and its been really hard on me. my dad also never gives me the time of day, and thinks all i do is annoy him and if i want to be around him its cuz i want something.

i dnt know what to do anymore. i feel helpless cuz i cant help myself, or have anyone to help. i dnt think therapy is an option anymore, so are there ways to cope with this by myself? my parents wont take me anywhere to get any help, even if it free.

Can someone Please Help Me!?

Thanks