I gave my heart out......I need help so bad its hurting!?

Hey i just need help...

I know this girl all summer untill now we had some much fun and i loved talking to her and she was my amazing friend i came to adore so much....shes so pretty and i know she has had it hard with men for a long time them yelling at her and treating her bad and such and i think of the world of her she called me romatic and such and i told her my true feelings 2 days ago and she said i never had anyone tell me these best things before just wow. (in my mind i was soo happy i have day dream and just adore her so much i feel she is soo right for me im a man she can trust and i can love her and never leave her my family has a long line of being faithful and i would go to hell before breaking it) then later on i said do you feel the same she said no.. and she said she should have said long ago, shes into girls.......... (my heart died i just went oon my knees just looking at the flowers on the grass and just cried my eyes out and just start praying to God why did it be this way, i talked 20 to 30 mintues giving my heart out and all my like i am alone she made me feel alive so much people said i was crazy she wasnt that pretty at all but i adored her and thought the world of her she is soo pretty..ive always havent really showed pitty for guys on here and now i know how it feels and it stinks so much and im sorry for everything, idk what to do i talk about her for hours to my mother she was so happy i meet her and she said she sounds like the one. i said yeah)) lol........its just im tired of moving on im tired of going to the next and moving on i just dont wanna do it anymore..........im not gonna put one foot infront of the other this time..i thought to my self maybe she will change her mind, but its a lie,and im crying right now on this, i asked her is this just a small inch of a future with you she said no,i am sorry..she told me you will get over it breath - like she didnt even cared how much i cared or bleed my heart out i just feel borkean i never felt this way about a woman, i been so depressed i havent eatin i just soo sad and i dont know, i looked up is there any stories of gay woman changing their mind later in life and find a man and have kids and a happy family...but i know its a dream........*God I am lost, I am yours, Save me*