He's driving me crazy!!! :'(?

Okay so, here the story. My boyfriend and I been together on and off since 2008. I was 18 then and he 23. Everybody warned me away from him, but I ignored them. A month and half later found out I was pregnant. I thought he was it. Then shortly after, hell broke loose. He got insanely jealous and started controlling my life. That's how the on and off breakups and making up began. You see before we got together, I was in treatment for depression for about 8 months. I told him straight off about and he said it didn't matter. But he used it against me after he would break it off. And when he does he would treat me like I was nothing. And hook up with other girls. Some of my family members. And say I'm the whore and blah blah blah. When I don't even go hook up with anybody! He would tell me to go kill myself already!!! But then he would start being sweet and say he sorry etc and I would fall for it each time. Our son that I gave birth to in 2009 was put up for adoption. And he blames me for it! I was 19 and he left me!!! I was a wreck! But anyway, we had a couple more kids. After our daughter was born he said he would not leave again. But he up and left when she was two weeks old!!! I was devastated! I almost lost it, but I kept it together for my babies. He took off. And in September we got back together. After knowing after he left me, he had a few bitches on the side. He insulted me. Accused me of sleeping with my cousins. Even my own brother!!! Yet I went back to him. I loved him despite what he done. I sacrificed a lot for this man. Now it's been a couple months since we got together. And he hasn't done one thing he promised to do when we got back together in September. I'm paying for everything and he controls my life. I can't talk to my family without him getting mad and he calls me lazy and I don't do anything! When I do clean and take care of our kids, and our son has special needs!!! Idk what to do! I love him, but it doesn't seem like he loves me anymore.:(