Delilah

Okay, I love my boyfriend, but things are seriously not working. We argue everyday. And result me crying. He hasn't touched me in about a month! And he always was crazy about me! We have two kids. They adore him. But he hardly helps with them. He goes to school, but after school he just does his homework and then play that ******* black ops all the time. When he's not on it, he's watching a movie or on the iPod. Hardly barely give the kids attention anymore. I pay for everything, and when he gets money, he just thinks for himself! He goes and calls me lazy and that I don't do anything and he blames me for his problems. He tells our kids crap about me. I told him to leave and he goes he knew its what I always wanted. That ill just go and be a whore and then start calling for him back. I never slept with anybody but him. I'm just so frustrated and wanted to know what your opinions are. He is verbally abusive also. I love him, but it's like he doesn't want to be with me anymore. The way he's been acting lately. :'(

Since I said I don't believe in god anymore, practically everyone I know has turned their back on me. I mean what the ****? I'm still the same person. For me, that just shows how messed up in believing god can be. I'm suddenly bad now? Christians, if your loved one said they don't believe in god anymore, would you turn your back on them? Or try to get them saved again, and if you don't succeed, would you turn away from them? What would you do Christians? Cause I practically just been disowned by everybody.

Would god forgive me after I turned away from him. Cursing him, telling myself he isn't real and that it is made up. Would he forgive me if I wanted him back in my life, or just say I had my chance and turn his back on me cause I done that to him. What do you think?

Okay, so lets say you were right,

And there is a god, and he does come down and do as it says in the book. And me, who don't believe, finally gets proof and realize what a fool I been, I will not get a second chance I stand correct? And I go to this place hell, cause I don't believe in this god. But why? If he is our father and we are his children, wouldn't we deserve a second chance? Or it don't work that way? I'm confused here. Enlighten me.

Why when I ask something about god or anything, people always throw bible versus at me. Is that all you got? A bunch of words in a book that don't mean nada to me? It's just words that someone wrote and been passed down for years and years. So if I believed in Harry Potter, he's real to? And you ask for proof, and I'll tell you, he's been through this and that and blah blah blah. It comes from the book. Or maybe twilight. You ask for proof, I'll throw the book at you an say there! It says it all!!! Can't convince me but with words in a book. Nice. And don't say he created me, cause far as I know, it's my mother that has carried me, gave birth and took care of me! Therefor she's the one that has gave me life! Am I right or am I right?

Okay, explain to me please and I don't care if you leave a rude comment! I will laugh it off and will be ignored haha. If God existed and talked to Noah about building and ark, and all these animals got on it, even the dangerous ones, but they never attacked cause god had like some power over them or whatever, how come he doesn't stop those who are attacked today from animals? And die a painful death? Hmm? Just a thought anyway . . .

Okay, if God truly exist, how come most can't prove it? I mean man came up with myths like vampires, werewolves, etc. What if they also came up with God? I know this may come with rude comments or such, but I don't care. I lost my faith. Too many bad **** in this world, and why can't he stop it. If he was real, why let so many of his children go to hell to be tortured by this so called satan? Why not crush satan anyway when he first rebelled against God? Why let it go on for years.

Okay, so it started three days ago as just a light bleeding. Then it progressed and got heavier and heavier to where I have to change a pad every hour or it might soak through. And I would pass large blood clots. Before this I was experiencing tiredness, nausea, headaches and dizzyness for a bit. I was due for a shot of depo in August and never went cause my hormones were out of wack. It was normal bleeding until a month ago that my period lasted 2 weeks stop for a week and went for two weeks again. And then it stop up til three days ago. Between that time it stop was two and half weeks. Now it's different, cramping are extreme, passing large blood clots and small ones sometimes but large usually. Very heavy bleeding. I have appointment tomorrow, and I just wanted to know if anybody else experienced this, and if you had, what was the cause of it?

Always ask where's the proof that God do exist, but those that don't believe, where's your proof that he doesn't?

I see that people on here asking why God has created us knowing we could be sentenced to Hell or have wicked thoughts or such. I don't think he planned on having one of his angels Lucifer rebelling against him. I don't even think God predicted that. It's not Gods fault there's so many bad things happening in this world. It's our OWN. God gave us free will. And to choose what to do, how we live and all that. If we are sentenced to burn in Hell, it was our own doing. Do you agree or do you not.

Thou shall not kill is probably one of the biggest commandments to follow. But people are sentenced to death. I believe although they certainly do deserve it, it's not right to kill another human being, no matter how bad they done to another. It's not our right to judge them to death. Yes, if some guy raped and tortured and gave my daughter a brutal death, I would want the bastard to die, but it's not my call to say so. Or if a person killed many people, it's still not our call to sentence them to death. Thou shall not kill. Instead of putting them through death, why not let them suffer in jail. I know I probably would get negative comments on here, but it's how I feel and wonder if there's any out there that feels the same?

Okay, there's always questions asking if they could get pregnant if they had their clothes on or they didn't do it but the person came into their hands but touched themselves afterwards or something like that. Or they just bored and want to ask dumb questions??? Or they actually don't know??? Seriously, I believe you shouldn't be having sex unless you had been to sex education!!! That way you'll know how the little ones are made!!! And the only way you could be pregnant is if you have sex!!!! You agree that they should go through a health class before doing anything??? Seriously.

Do you believe in God??? Why or why not???

Okay, please no rude answers or comments. I'm a wreck here. I took the depo once after I had my daughter. 6 months ago. But I didn't go in for another shot at the three month mark. Now I'm up the wall. Moody. Urinate often. Headaches. Sleepy all the time and just so emotional!!! I actually almost cried after that scene in breaking dawn part two! I never cry during any movie at all. I was wondering is this the after effects of getting off the depo after only one shot??? Anyone experience same or similar things???

Okay, so a week ago, a friend of mine lost a person she was really close to. She said she wanted to die to! But I told her no, we needed her and didn't need to lose anymore people, especially healthy young person that can help change the world with her smartness. She asked me what would I do? I told her, I wouldn't look as her friend dying, but as her leaving her body off to a new place, where they will again meet someday. That they hadn't actually died, just moved on to the next life. And they will be waiting. That it may seem forever to be with them again, but it's not. Compare how long you will live in this life to being with them an eternity in the next life. It's hard, but it will be again reunited. Then she screamed at me and asked if that's all I gotta say and asked what would I do if either my kids died. I would want to die to then right? I simply said, I would be angry, and ask why they left me so soon. At some point I would want to die, but then think it over and remind myself I will be with them again someday. She slapped me then and walked off. What did I do wrong??? Could I have said something else??? Now I just feel damn guilty and maybe could have said something better. What would you have said if you were in my situation???

Okay so, here the story. My boyfriend and I been together on and off since 2008. I was 18 then and he 23. Everybody warned me away from him, but I ignored them. A month and half later found out I was pregnant. I thought he was it. Then shortly after, hell broke loose. He got insanely jealous and started controlling my life. That's how the on and off breakups and making up began. You see before we got together, I was in treatment for depression for about 8 months. I told him straight off about and he said it didn't matter. But he used it against me after he would break it off. And when he does he would treat me like I was nothing. And hook up with other girls. Some of my family members. And say I'm the whore and blah blah blah. When I don't even go hook up with anybody! He would tell me to go kill myself already!!! But then he would start being sweet and say he sorry etc and I would fall for it each time. Our son that I gave birth to in 2009 was put up for adoption. And he blames me for it! I was 19 and he left me!!! I was a wreck! But anyway, we had a couple more kids. After our daughter was born he said he would not leave again. But he up and left when she was two weeks old!!! I was devastated! I almost lost it, but I kept it together for my babies. He took off. And in September we got back together. After knowing after he left me, he had a few bitches on the side. He insulted me. Accused me of sleeping with my cousins. Even my own brother!!! Yet I went back to him. I loved him despite what he done. I sacrificed a lot for this man. Now it's been a couple months since we got together. And he hasn't done one thing he promised to do when we got back together in September. I'm paying for everything and he controls my life. I can't talk to my family without him getting mad and he calls me lazy and I don't do anything! When I do clean and take care of our kids, and our son has special needs!!! Idk what to do! I love him, but it doesn't seem like he loves me anymore.:(

Okay, I gave birth to my daughter 6 months ago. And they gave me the depo shot two days later. Didn't actually explain what the effects would be. Me, tired, signed permission and all that thinking if this kept me from getting pregnant again why not? So, I usually lose the weight after having a child. I have three. This time I didn't. My hormones been up the wall. I started gaining weight bit by bit and I can't stop it! I been depressed. I never been this huge only if I was pregnant. So I decided to not go in for another shot thinking it was the depo. But here I am with the same symptoms. But a few we're added on, I'm sleepy all the time and I pee more often. Shouldn't they warn you what the after effects of getting off the depo??? Like the whole menstral cycle been all wacky??? Oh and I have a history of depression, shouldn't they have not given me the shot if I have a history of depression? I admit its not the best hospital in the world, but it's the only one I could go to! Oh and before I found out I was pregnant I told my doc I could be pregnant and it's too early for a pregnancy test. Yet she did it anyway and when it turned negative she offered the depo. I said no. But she insisted. She kept insisting so I gave in! Then a few weeks ago I found out I was indeed pregnant and she insisted nothing could happen to my baby. But I was angry with her anyway and stormed off. Angry at myself for letting her carry on and on of how I should prevent another pregnancy. Okay my point is, is it wrong of them to not tell you the after effects of getting off depo?!? And if you already have a history of depression, and they don't check up on that and give it to you anyway??? Idk. I'm all sorts of hormonal and just wanted to let it out. What are your opinions on this. Oh and your negative comments are ignored. I'll just laugh it off though.

Okay, who likes that song from Green Day on the Breaking Dawn soundtrack The Forgotten???

Why ask stupid questions when you know you will get a stupid answer? Okay so it's not a long question haha. Yes I do realize I just asked a stupid question! Happy Thanksgiving everyone!