whats your advice for me?????

I will try to make this really short since a lot of people dont like to read. I was diagnosed with major depression in December 2011 and have not gotten any better I'm a libra so I love to socialize But after getting into 2 accidents and put in to foster care I have become antisocial and get very shy and sad easily I always want to be left alone I did take medication Before (trazodone 100MG And fluoxetine 10 MG) But I Started Gaining A Lot Of Weight And I Did The Worst Thing I Could Have Done I Took Myself Off Them Without My Doctors Permission anyway after my accident I didn't want to leave my room witch means I also dropped out of high school I dont get along with my parents at all I had to move back because I closed my case with the court but I'm getting kicked out of my house when I'm 18 I have no job and I'm getting depressed again because idk what to do I feel like its to late to go to school I only need 60 more credits to graduate and I wont make it in time to graduate in may 2013 idk if I should go to a continuation school? I really only have like 6 months and ill be thrown out in July yea I know they cant kick me out till my birthday in October but I have no chance. I have tried to commit suicide many times but I know I can take myself out of this black whole. I know I can. I was going to Texas this month to meet my real dad for the first time and also take out $5000 from a bank in Mexico that my grandfather left me before he died I'm going to save it but my moms husband got mad at me and now our trip is cancelled and I need a parent to take out that money and now I dont have a chance to meet my real dad :'( idk what to do Im getting very deep in that black whole again. I was thinking of getting a job and earning money for a plane ticket to see my dad and take out the money with him and then come back and work and inrole in a school and move out and lift myself back up Its so easy to say but to do is hard since Im depressed and not looking at the good side I want to become a radio personality or radio host I'm very good at it I took a class before and I loved it but now I'm here I have no friends or family I only have myself and that's all I need. I know I can do this I need advice and motivation! Please comment and thanks you if you read allow this God bless -Karen