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I'm not really sure what to do.?
I really don't know what to do, but I think I might be dangerous. I have this weird obsession with serial killers and, just, like, other killers. Like, I always have. Even when I was younger, I can remember having an obsession with the Donner Party and stuff. You know. Cannibalism. And death. To this day this stuff still fascinates me. But it's not just fascination. I have fantasies, too. Like, I have this overwhelming curiosity.
I don't think I'm quite right mentally. I've been hallucinating high pitched sounds like whimpers and screams lately. And I have severe, violent mood swings. Like, really severe. It's mostly between anger and depression though. I never feel happy and i never cry. I mean, I'm 14 though, so it might be normal, but it doesn't seem like it. And I'm constantly tired. I have a lot of trouble falling asleep at night, and it torments me.
I've been acting out a lot lately. I stabbed a kid in the leg with a ball point pen the other day, and I gave a kid a concussion about a month before after I slammed him into a brick walk. And I can't stop shooting at my family. I can't walk through the halls at school with thinking about how much I want everyone there to die.
I hate almost everything. It's horrible, but I just can't help it.
I'm also really paranoid. I haven't been doing much lately because every time I go out I always feel like everyone is staring at me. No matter what I do. I just can't shake the feeling. I mean, I'm paranoid about tons of other stuff. Even numbers of foods (like goldfish) and having an equal amount of food on both sides of my mouth at all times. And always eating my food in a certain order. And more. But the feeling of being watched is the worst.
I really don't know what to do. My parents don't know about most of this, and I don't know of I should talk to them or not. I don't know what's wrong with me, and I don't know if I'm dangerous, or how to find out. I just... Gahhhh.
... Please help.
2 Answers
- Anonymous8 years ago
You give me the impression that you're everyone's worst nightmare. Try and see yourself through somebody else's eyes. Like the person you bully. Maybe there's someone in the school class that they would like to talk to; except without the damage that you've caused emotionally, which would enable you to both to express yourself. They will not feel normal but allow the stress to come out. Next, look at yourself through someone else's eyes. I don't know but, you eat compuslsively so other people do things compuslively too, flicking hair, walking, all sorts. Talk to anybody and try to see what they see.
Then you talk to the person you stuck a pen in, tell them what you think other people see, they should tell you what THEY want to see. If any of this makes sense, you'll give it a go. They say what REALLY you need to know, because that's how you be nice to them. You'll find out from the person they talk too/confide in how you see yourself. You prob wob't like it as that's how you're seen, then work out how to br nice to yourself without paranoia. It should have stopped and you will want to fo normal stuff for a 14 year old. Which is where you talk to you parents. If you pray to god you'll be honest with yourself, important if you want to talk to you parents. That's all?
- 8 years ago
I find that music helps to be soothing when thoughts like that arise. Listen to some Angels & Airwaves, that should help out
