Everyone around me is dying?

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I am 22 years old. My mother has schizophrenia so my grandparents raised me. So they essentially were like my parents. They have both passed away now. My mother just called me today and stated she has a tumor on her neck. We are not sure what the outcome will be. I am just scared. I am independent. I can take care of myself. Although I have lost nearly all of my family either through death, or the fact they just do not talk to me.  Now my mom might be leaving me. I have never felt so lonely, I have no brothers or sisters. I am so jealous of the people who have families. It's hard not to be. Sure I do have some good people who do include me in events, which I am so grateful for, although you still don't feel like you belong........ I just do not feel like I have a place in this world. Everyone I grow close to dies and leaves me. I am having a hard time waning to make relationships with people. Does anyone else have a similar story, if so how have you coped with it? I just feel like 22 is a young age to be all alone. I know there are others out there, how do you handle it?

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I can relate to you to a certain extent..

I HAD a big family when I was young. 
A LOT happened in my childhood and by the time I was nine, the only family I had was my mom. 
Ever sense then, it's all it's ever been. 

I've always wanted a big happy family too. 

tbh, (& I'm not telling you to go do this lol) the moment in my life that I felt like that empty space was finally filled was when I had a baby of my own.

Gebu · Answer

Josh, Do you go to college or are you working?  You are very lucky to have had grandparents that cared enough to take on another family.  Make them proud!  If you are still in school, finish.  Get your degree.  If you are working and do not have a degree yet, look into evening classes or online classes.  Determine your interests and set goals for yourself. You can be support for your mom but you cannot fix any problems she may have. You do have a place in this world.  If you continue to feel this way, seek medical help.  You may be experiencing some depression.  Who else besides your grandparents have you grown close and have died?  Do you have a family doctor that you can talk to? If you have time on your hands volunteer at a local hospital or homeless shelter. Stop in at a nearby nursing home and play a card game or board game like checkers with one of the people living there.

Anonymous · Answer

I'm 16 and I've lost a friend recently, but more like a sister, and she was the most important person in my life in the world, more like the biggest piece of my life. I was thinking of dying just so I could go and see her again, but I realized I had other friends around me who were important too. They are still very important and they're who I keep close to me now, because they're who I don't want to lose.

Anonymous · Answer

Sorry to hear it, do you enjoy any of the numerous types of art?

Playing music, writing in the different ways that you can, painting, etc.........?

It's always been a good release for such things.

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Everyone around me is dying?

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