Info on God from an Ex-Agnostic/ Ex-Pegan. I'll do my best. Do you have more?

I have taken notice to commonly asked questions about God on this page and I am not sure you actually want answers, but in case you are genuine, I am here to give you them.

Where does God come from?

God is a complex entity, you see, God is within everything and everything is within God, a force like microscopic waves that both surround and go through you. One hard part about the concept of God, is to understand that unlike earthy things, God was not born, but always was. To quote the bible "I am the alpha and the omega." "I am the beginning and the end." See, God is bigger than the confined states of birth and death.

If God is loving, why would he condemn people to hell?

This is an interesting question. You see, I often stumbled on it myself in my early years of Christianity at 15 years of age. Then I discovered something, truly interesting. In the time of Christ on earth, there were piles of flame that dead bodies were thrown into, as not to make anyone ill. This is what the description of hell was based off of. Anyone who has read anything Jesus ever said would know that he likes to talk in riddles and prefers to leave people at cliffhangers, so there hearts will figure out the rest, or so is my belief. It is also said in scripture that "God is a God of life and not of death." This drew me toward the conclusion that hell is in fact death from a spiritual lack of nutrition of sorts, a supposed to eternal life, which would come form a soul that is filled. Now what could this nutritional lack of sorts be" I wondered to myself for quite some time. Then it hit me: Love. "God is love" "Love is the fulfillment of the law" and Jesus saying "Love thy neighbor" was the most important commandment. The lack of love withers the soul, wile an abundance of it keeps the soul alive. God does not torture us, he simply doesn't force himself on us, and if indeed God IS LOVE, then we know why someone without him would then die with the flesh. and because God will not force us to be around him if we hate him, he will let us chaos our own death over heaven, with him.

Why would God only allow a few chosen people who believe one doctrine to live forever when there are many people who are not good there and many people who are kinder and more understanding elsewhere?

Now here I will say it, I firmly believe Gandhi and Buddha and all the Dali Lamas, who I do believe are different people in spite of what I'm told of reincarnation, will be going to heaven. I have no doubts of this, and none of them were or are christian. Now, it's true Jesus said "None gets to heaven but through me," but what is "through me?" We Christians know that Jesus is the judge on the final day. He will decide weather or not we are going to heaven. That is what it means. If someone lives a life of love and charity, he already knows them, wile if someone claims to know him and is cruel to people, he in fact said he would tell them "I never knew you" and he will tell them to get away form him.

If god is real, why haven't I seen any proof?

You have. I am a believer in both creationism and evolution and this I will tell you, there is no more factual proof to one than the other. If you see we are here, just as you see fossils that look similar but change slightly with time, then, what other proof could you possibly hope to come by other than watching a creature evolve of witnessing a miracle yourself? The trouble with miracles, is they are seldom given if someone does not already have faith that God will grant them.

Aren't we our own Gods, and isn't is possible to believe you are your own God without being vain if Jesus did it?

Jesus could do miracles. There is even proof of him beyond the Bible, Greek and Roman writers declaring him a philosopher, a magician, and a demon. And yes, to view yourself as a God is entirely vain, and I man that in the kindest of ways since I know how easy wrongful pride is to slip into because I have done it. I myself confess to being a fool in the past and I strive each day both to never go back to that and to uncover what I am still doing foolishly. I even slipped in to the very action I am warning against there. How else would I know? There is always something with us people. It's true that people are not perfect, and that is understandable, but it is no excuse to indulge them when with effort they can be stopped.

Why was the God of the Old Testament so cruel?

The Old Scripture was a little off, that's one reason Jesus came to us. To correct us about beliefs of a God who cares more for tradition than people and domination than love. And the reason, I believe, that that one time God said to kill all women and children was to keep them from the scorn and possibly torture I am positive that they would have gotten in living in a land run by those they were waring against.