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Please help I'm losing it?

I know this is long but I need help so badly that it would truly means the world if you read this over and took your time to write an honest response to try to help me the best you can because I really need it so very badly.

I haven't felt truly beautiful for more than fleeting seconds since before I was in the 5th grade or maybe even before. I am 14 and now in the 8th grade and I'm so tired of not being able to think of myself as beautiful. I hate my body and want to lose a little bit of chub or as my mom insists it 'baby fat'. I've asked for diets and schedules to help me achieve that goal before but I always got answers like "exercise more" or "eat better and keep a schedule" but I don't know how to 'eat better' and I'm lazy and have a very hard time finding motivation and becoming committed I've cut myself from self hatred a handful of times because that's all I knew how to do. It scares me because I feel as if I will never look at myself and think I'm pretty or skinny enough. Also I wonder if I have a form of anorexia because almost no ones bodies are to my standards even if they are skinny and I look at them and think "if I were her I would be luck I would only have a few pounds to go before I was 'perfect'". But 'perfect' doesn't exist but I can't even reach my good enough point. I think about suicide periodically and that scares me too because I don't want to kill myself but the thought will just appear and I will find myself thinking how easy it would be to just take pills or eat a Poison flower like the ones I have in my back yard. Those thoughts scare me so much. Also I don't know how to deal with stress. I don't understand anything in my math class (algebra) and feel so behind but I work fairly hard but even though I know I should work harder and I stress over grades I don't! I don't know why I'm so stupid about not working harder! I'm taking all honors classes and band and a language. I'm horrible in band and I barely understand the language I'm taking. I dread school every day. Also I don't feel like any boy has ever wanted me. I've only ever been asked out by people who were dared and I was asked out by this one boy but said no but he was all of a sudden in love with my best friend 3 days later when he met her. I don't feel wanted. I feel like guys who know me only look at me as a sister or one of the guys but not as someone who they would/could ever date. And all the others boys don't pay attention really either because I'm not popular and don't have an amazing body so I don't go around 'flaunting my stuff' or whatever.

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There was this one boy who I liked since the first time I lay eyes on him (yeah cheesey I know but life happens) and we became friends (school friends) but he never even seemed to be interested in me ever. One time he called me fat in spanish jokingly yes but I still remember and can't forget and he hasn't eve complemented. Also my dream is to sing on broadway and to actor/model/author/artist but I can't sing AT ALL. I'm not confidant enough to act or pretty/skinny enough to be a model my stories never have enough explanation even after they end and my art is mediocre at best. It probably doesn't help that my 2 best friends are uncommonly smart and dedicated (one of them even goes to a school for the especially talented aka a school for geniuses). I'm always overshadowed by them. Friend 1 who goes to school with me is dedicated, pretty, gets straight A's, popular, asked out a lot. My other friend, friend 2 is like I said a genius and she is also an amazing a

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artist (beyond amazing it's uncanny really) she is gorgeous and always has been. She has always been better at everything we ever do I try something new, work at it for a while then show her and sh tries it and is already better her first or second go at it. Friend 3 is an amazing singer she is good enough for julliard where she is going to try for. (the other 2 are trying for stanford and for harvard or yale where as I'm lucky if UW accepts me). She is also super good at acting and all the boys like her (she is the one the boy fell in love with 3 days after he asked me out). I don't feel smart or pretty or good enough at anything. I don't reach my standards or anyone else's. I don't know how to make myself reach those standards. I want someone to tell me how I can lose weight and feel pretty without them saying "You need to first believe your pretty" or "you just need to eat better and make a schedule and exercise" I want someone to tell me

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how I can lose weight and feel pretty without them saying "You need to first believe your pretty" or "you just need to eat better and make a schedule and exercise" I want someone to tell me how to cope with the stress and how to feel more confidant. I need help. I don't know what to do.

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  • 8 years ago
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    Ok I feel kinda weird answering this at 4 am but I see you desperately need help.

    First of all, laughter is the best medicine so that comes first!!! To cheer you up a little and put you in a mood open for advice I'd like to introduce you to a radio station (this is not an ad) called 24/7 comedy. I'm in Austin so it's 102.7 but if you're somewhere else then just get the 'I heart radio' app or something and look up 24/7 comedy.

    I fear I may run out of characters so I may just ask you to email me and I'll get back to you. I see your problem but really some of your thinking is illogical and unreasonable. I mean if your friends are really that great then it's hard to believe that their friend is so much worse. I won't lie, in many friendships there's the more and less attractive but to be so much less attractive and wanted then your friends is unheard of. It seems that just like people say "oh that guy is out of her league" it works the same way for friends. Although no one would say that it's true. You won't see a group of guys where it's all nerds and outcasts with one super popular/hot guy in the middle. Or vice versa. The cutting yourself part sorta hurt me because I've known people who hurt their self for reasons like yours and I don't think it's necessary. I get how tough it is to break a habit as such but believe me, it is very well possible. I've done so by breaking my habit of having such a short temper. I used to go into blind rages in which huge damage would be done. I found (for me) exercise is a great outlet to that shelled anger and frustration. For you I feel that the answer is laughter, fun, and love. Go hang out with your friends! Let them know when you like someone! Chances are, they'll urge you to go talk to him and maybe even ask him out. There is really no shame in girl asking guy but some people think of it as a little weird. I personally see nothing wrong with it because my current relationship occurred like so. I'm happy with her and we found eachother in school also! I won't give you that "You're too young for love" crap because its really fun and you get to gain and share many experiences with your first love. Depending on when you get together, they may not be the one you marry. Find a nice guy (by nice I don't mean popular. I mean kind, smart, sweet, maybe a little shy because shy guys are the best once they get comfortable) and if he isn't a douche bag then he'll love you for all your beauty and remember this; there is no such thing as ugly, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. Not saying that the beholder can't be a di*k but a real guy won't want anything sexual just yet. If you fear that you may have anorexia nervousa (I studied this not too long ago) then you may just need to make sure you eat enough for your weight which is probably around a 2000-2200 calorie diet depending on how much you exercise. I want you to feel comfortable in your clothes and your body. Embrace what you've been given and allow yourself to be confident. Here's my tip:be confident. Let others know you're confident but don't fake confidence.

    Here's why:

    8th grade year I was 5'6" and kinda skinny and quite a bit of acne. I couldn't fix it and i didn't have the most expensive clothes or shoes, but I let everyone know that I was proud and that I stood talk and had confidence in myself. Now I'm no perfect ten. I'd rate myself maybe a 6. But that year i had a good 8-10 girls crushing on me and one of them is now my current love. I'm not saying that's the limit but just walk proud in your body and hey no one ever said exercise hurt. I was the weakest and scrawniest kid in 6th grade but it motivated me to be one of the strongest and the very next year (not to boast) I had six pack abs with arms that could beat the strongest kid in 8th grade at arm wrestling. If you're not paying attention to any of my former advice then a great way to tone your body and trim fat is to run track. The cardio helps with the heart, it tones your legs thighs and a*s (just sayin, guys love it) and it makes you healthier in general. You don't seem like an overweight type girl. Btw that guy you mentioned *thumbs down* sucks. I should've mentioned one crucial word that your new guy must be: MATURE. That guy:immature. Wrong, not the guy for you. I'm not saying to find an older guy but at least make sure he acts his age. Now if your mom insists that it's baby fat and you're calling it "chub" then I don't think you're very fat. I'd estimate maybe...120lbs or less. My girlfriend weighed just a little less than that and always called herself fat but I thought she was absolutely sexy! Wait if your a good 5'2" then I'd say yeah about 115-120lbs. If I'm wrong then don't take it wrong but I know you&#

  • Anonymous
    8 years ago

    Heya :3, I know its hard to Cope with stress, i have had a few "Moments" Myself, I'm sure everyone has, I know its hard to do, but try not to let others Opinions of you Rule your life, your who you are, don't go around chasing boys, thats not the important thing really, You have your own life ahead of you, So much to do, Sure not being the most popular person isn't really that great, but Popular people really get everything handed to them on a silver plate, Live life to your way, don't let others thoughts and views of you change you, Just be You, As long as you feel good about yourself, Believe in yourself, Yeah Life can be hard, but Really if you live through a Hard life Early , The Rest will be easy, get an easy life at the start, Popularity, Boys everything, then Your gonna have a Hard life Later, Try not to Think of yourself through others Eyes, I don't care what others think about me, Nor should you, Love every moment of life, Don't get pushed around by others, It doesn't matter if your not the Smartest, Prettiest, Most Popular , all that matters is that Your You, and no one can take that from you, Chin up, Aye life can be Hard at times, Especially at your age, but that's no reason to Stop, Push Forwards Against the other opinions ,

    Hope I helped , Even just a little and if you ever want to Talk , Drop me a line at my FB ( http://www.facebook.com/demonicserah)

    Source(s): ~My Life~
  • 8 years ago

    Ok you sound exactly like me in middle school, I was the chubby awkward looking girl everyone hated and made fun of, on contemplated suicide on many occasions and cut myself, I hated myself my appearance my school and everyone, I never ever in a million years thought I'd have a boyfriend or friends at all, but believe me when I say literally you grow out of it, if someone voters you tell them off! If they touch you beat the **** out of them, you don't need to take **** from anyone, it took me till 11th grade to lose weight and get a boyfriend iv smoked weed iv done drugs and drank to ease the pain and its not easy but the suffering does come to an end, nothing if forever. You can get though it :) as for algebra, try online help or asking the teacher or anything, he'll I got an F in everything in middle school but they passed me out of pity and as for band if you don't like it try switching out say it just isn't for you, make yourself heard! You can also express you sad emotions though art or poetry, I used to draw the sad I felt, and its ok to cry cuz that really makes you feel better if you wanna talk some more you can email me at greeninja21@gmail.com I love to help people and you can't tell me anything I haven't already done myself so go for it!

    Source(s): Me
  • 8 years ago

    I dint read ur full question but still i think i can help :)

    U r 14 so being fat is not a problem, ul grow slim in couple of years.... say 2 years or even 1,

    in India there are many cases i v seen frm my eyes,

    just keep ur metabolism high (by not geting lazy) and eat small meals instead of large meals.

    And dont go for starvation. In starvation the body tries to save energy.

    Good luck :)

    Source(s): Superman
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  • 4 years ago

    bruh just dont be fat

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