Amphetamine addiction, it's long b/c I'm speeding need help bad?

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When I was 15-16 I had a pretty bad pill problem once my mom found out I was basically not allowed to leave my room and cause I was doing online Highschool I lost touch with everyone who fed my addiction and I was able to stop and really got my shut together 
When I went to college I was 5 hours from home and pretty much took whatever I could find I blew $3500 in the first month alone. One of my friends had a vyvanse script and would give them to me for free whenever I wanted them basically turned into a junkie bunged for months and stopped going to classes and whenever I didn't have any or came down I got really depressed would cry for hours and just wanted to die. My mom made me come home I feined for months but couldn't find any so I stopped.
That was a year ago and up until a month ago I haven't slept a full night,  once I week I would get depressed and have insane cravings calling everyone looking for anything to take me up and I would have emotional breakdowns and cry myself to sleep.
I just moved to a new city for work and I am surrounded by drugs I was doing pretty well before I wouldn't have been able to be in that environment and stayed clean I have even been turning offers down.
Just recently works been crazy and I have been so stressed out I feel like I am not able to accomplish anything so I got ahold of some adderall. For the last couple days I have been pretty much constantly speeding I have been so productive at work even my boss has noticed and has been pretty impressed but as soo. As it wears off I already have old symptoms of being depressed and negative thoughts about myself and my life so of course I pop some more.
I just need advice from someone who had been through this or knows someone who has because honestly I try to picture my future and I don't see anything I am the oldest of 5 little sisters who I know look up to me I really want to be a gOod role mOdel but I feel like this will never end. Please anyone who understands how can I stop?

Elvis · Accepted Answer

I am a recovering addict with 21 years clean. If this amphetamine addiction is causing you problems in this many different areas in your life then you need to take a look at getting in patient or out patient counseling. If you don't get help soon with this, something bad may happen in your life to where you have no choice but to quit. Like maybe your heart cant take the speed anymore and just stops beating. thats what happens eventually!! That just say no crap doesnt work most of the time.. At a minimum go to a NARCOTICS ANONYMOUS meeting and talk with the addicts in there. Trust me, you WILL find people there who understand, and have been exactly where you are now...GOOD LUCK

Anonymous · Answer

You have an addicted personality which means you probably will not be able to stop by yourself. If you think you can. You are deluding yourself.

Step one: Intervention. You're not going to like hearing this, but you need to tell your parents about what is going on.  Take a leave of absence or quit your job. Go to rehab or if you cannot afford it go home to your parents and have them put your on lock down. You will need to detox!  Stay this way for at least 6 months.   Once you are cleaned up, be honest with yourself and if you feel yourself relapsing call your parents. You are not flawless and trying an addictive substance JUST ONCE will get your addicted. Your family is your support group. They love you and want to help you! take advantage of that. Yes you are a roll model to your younger sisters and you would be setting an even better example for them showing them that when you were having a problem you sought help! You didn't try to deal with it alone.

If you do not get help ASAP you will most likely die very soon. I am not trying to sound melodramatic. I am being honest. Amphetamine addiction destroys the heart and brain. You are on a fast track to nowhere. GET HELP

Anonymous · Answer

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