Who believes in alien abduction?

I'm an abductee; but I don't very much believe it was aliens. I believe it to be pro parlor tricks to cover up the fact my body parts were stolen for cosmetic surgery on others... my hands can't play guitar anymore. My fingers are longer and the finger nails now have beau lines in them. I was repeatively abducted in my bath tub and have what feels like remote controlled emotions. I got possessed for maybe ten full seconds like Reagan with my throat bubbling up and choking me off and no witnesses around but serious enough to be scared. Things started happening like birds killing themself and spiders in front of me then seeing spirits of people who have died in the same way I seen the animals die. My spiritual beliefs involve animal and spirit guides. The stress of it is enough to pike and I get possessed randomly to draw and do numerology to a point I've come up with names of people in the o ituaries... I could see the future and it got destroyed numbers of times so paths do change. I would see flashes of light as id get abducted. Looking for others to give me what they think and believe. There's a lot more to it but I don't want to get in to it.