Am Antisocial is there something wrong with me?

Well ... you have a gf so you must not be that antisocial. Your concern shows that you're not numb. Sorry for your loss. The fact that you're questioning your lack of emotion during that time shows you do care. Everyone handles loss differently. Don't beat yourself up about not crying. My younger brother (now 25) told me how he felt bad for not crying when a close aunt of ours died when we were kids. He said he pretended to cry because we all were crying. His concern shows he cares. Don't have hate for people who don't act like you. I doubt you'd label yourself as controlling ... but being dismissive towards people who aren't how you want them to be is pretty azz holish my young friend. LOL Appreciate ... don't try, but just appreciate your family members for who they are. You have a gf, appreciate her and go out to the movies ... or just to the mall to grab a bite or something. Maybe take her to the arcade and have some fun. Always accept others for who they are (as long as they aren't weirdos ... ya know) because you can't change others, you can only change yourself. Change how you respond to people. I have been known to be a bit antisocial, and would get irritated by people and their idiotic behavior, but I just learned to check myself when I start to feel peeved by them. I remember that we're all individuals who like acceptance whether we want to admit it or not. Tomorrow try spending a little time chatting with a fam member that usually ends up p*ssing you off. Start with 10 min. Ask them simply, "what's going on with you today?" ... then let them have the floor. You'll feel better. Spread love boy! ;-) Good luck sweetie.