Recovering from abuse?

I'm very sorry that you experienced abuse

this is a hard subject that really only professionals can handle because they know how you feel or have done enough research to know what it's like and know effective ways to slowly help you feel comfortable with forms of touch

if you want the best answers, then you should go to a professional

if you want to give the message that you don't like being touched by people you have just meant, just keep a distance when talking to them and they can tell by your body language that you don't like it and will keep a distance to respect you

you may also leave if someone tries to cuddle with you or make faces if people mention things like hugs so that people around you can understand that it makes you uncomfortable

I'm sorry I can't really help and hope that you will find what you want

God bless you!

This is a very hard question to answer because I'm no expert. I have been abused myself so I know how hard it is to have a relationship. It takes time before you'll feel comfortable but it will happen sooner than later if you have someone in your life that is understanding and willing to take time with you. I would like to suggest therapy, it works wonders.