My experience with woman?

This is my tale heart break with woman. In 7th grade I had a big crush on L. It took me forever to get up the courage to call her. Finally I did. We talked and talked but I was and still am shy.So I never went out with her or talked to her at school. Finally her mother told me to stop calling,so I did. Through out my school years I had a few crushes,but never had the guts to make a move. When I was 17 N. entered my life. She was friendly and out going. Later I learned friends of mine set us up on a 4th of July date. We went to the city and smoked pot. This made me paranoid and things quickly got quite. I guess she thought I was flaky and that was that. Mind you she was sleeping with every guy she could. That was the part that really hurt.

Next came M. She was 22 and I was 18. We met at a house party. Being a quite person I guess makes you a good listener. She had recently broken up with a guy and was heart broken. She talked and talked about her problems. I began to feel very close to her. And fell in love. She would do little things to make me think she was interested in me. This went on for about 4-5 months. I was aware one of my friends and her were getting close. One day I called her house and her mother said,:She's not here she is out with F." Oh well another one down. A group of us had chipped in on a summer rental at the shore prior to this. One day after a hard night I awoke in the bedroom of our apt.

F. and M. were shall we say "riding the hobby horse." I just walked out of the apartment. I walked for a long time after that. I returned to the apt. and a few people were in the kitchen. M. pulled me aside and said."I know what your problem is,you like me to much." I never went to the apt. again,even though I had a 1/2 summer left.

Next was S. She was an attractive out going girl. She had that way about her. She made me feel special. I asked her out and we had a date. Little smooching and that was that. Had another date more smooching and that was that. Called her up and she told me she already has a boyfriend and doesn't have time to date two guys. I was devastated,crushed etc. It really,really hurt. Pain like I never felt before,I almost got sick to my stomach.A few weeks later I look across the street and see some people I know. I look and see two people in a very passionate embrace deep kissing and shall we say causing a lot of friction between their two bodies. Yup it was S.! WTF!

Later I meet La.,my ray of sunshine. We went to classes together. I felt we were growing very close. People thought we were married! We were always together. She and I were like one.

Later I asked her out,she declined. Then she dated some loser who stole from her and broke her heart. We kept in contact for a long time. Then she invited me to her place and we had a few drinks.

She didn't want me to drive and made a spot for me on the floor in her apt. Her apt. had an open floor plan,it was very small. I laid there for a few moments and she invites me into bed! Hot damned. I start by rubbing her back then we kiss very passionately. Things are going oh so well! Then I make my move. She says."stop I don't feel comfortable with this." WTF!!!!!

Oh well another one lost. I got dressed and left. She later apologized but it was just to little to late. I have had very little contact with her since. I realized that the only time she called me was when she wanted something. Advice about her car,something built,something fixed,to borrow something etc.

Oh well sorry if I rambled. Just wrote this to let some of the younger board readers that they aren't the only ones getting their hearts broken. Peace and good luck to you all!