I'm unhappy and I genuinely want to die?

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Being a teenager is the toughest deal. I can't speak for everyone, but I know for me it was by far the toughest, most confusing, loneliest time in my life. I've had another 20 years since then. Life has gotten better and better and BETTER! The thing is...stuff changes. I don't mean you're going to become very beautiful, or successful or popular. I mean, you'll come to understand that those things are only one way to measure yourself, and oh god, far from the best way! You can not know what the future will hold and the most beautiful, happiest moments are wound up in the fabric of every day stuff and before you know it, you're content, confident, different. You have to be who you are now in order to be who you will become. But you will become a different version of yourself. 100% guarantee. Can't emphasis it enough. "Now" is no measure of the future. The future for any teenager is golden compared to the present.

Be very gentle with yourself. The future "you" will appreciate it xxx

About your studies, I'm trying to understand what the problem is. Calculus is a very difficult subject. I know of a man whose career was writing on scientific topics. He could discuss any field intelligently. You may have read one of his books - Isaac Asimov. He said that in math, calculus was the mountain he couldn't climb. So if you've got a C+ in Pre Calc, that doesn't sound too bad. But if you do have mediocre math and science aptitude, that doesn't bar you from getting a good job. There's also language, the liberal arts. It really looks like you're looking at the world through depression glasses.

When you look at your options, you should consider that you have a life-threatening condition and that your survival comes first. Pleasing your mother is not as important. She might not like it if you called the doctor behind her back or called 911 and told the police you're suicidal, but there you are. There's no law that says you can't.

In cases like these, I always mention self help, because it can take a lot of time to find the help a person needs, even if the parent is willing. The experts say that, although self help is not intended to replace regular therapy, it is useful to a lot of depressed people.

When things are especially bad, take things one at a time -- a day at a time, a morning at a time, or even five minutes. A favorite movie or music can help. Many people get relief by going for a walk. Within reason, some extra food will lift your spirits, whereas alcohol, which makes depression worse, should be avoided. Don't isolate yourself. Talk with somebody, even if you don't feel like it.

Stay in touch with your feelings. When you have an unpleasant mood shift, take one or two slow, deep breaths and examine the thought that just occurred to you, in terms of its truth and its relevance to what you're doing at the moment. If you find yourself in a stressful situation, take slow, deep breaths until you're calm, then think carefully about what to do. Exercise has been shown to reduce stress. The best exercise is the kind you enjoy. It may also be that people with depression who tend to remain indoors benefit from increased exposure to sunlight.

Usually, people go into depression in a downward spiral of negativity in thinking and behavior, one leading to the other. Getting out of depression is an upward spiral of healthy thinking and behavior, one leading to the other. In some cases, medication plays an important part, but healthy thought and behavior are still necessary. It doesn't happen overnight, and it helps to be patient. A sense of humor is a big plus.

The most versatile treatment of all is healthy lifestyle. If you to go the University of Kansas TLC website, you can read about the lifestyle program developed there. It's things we all need anyway. It's low cost and low risk. Book - The Depression Cure by therapist/researcher Dr Steve Ilardi.

You can read a cognitive therapy book to find out about it. For some people, it serves as a good treatment of itself. The best one seems to be The Feeling Good Handbook by Dr. David Burns, the book recommended most often for depression by professionals. Another good book is the book on insomnia for women by Meir Kryger.

There is a free online therapy program called MoodGYM. It’s offered by a university.

One more thing about your studies. Sometimes bright students are held back by an inefficient set of study skills. I've read many study manuals, and the best are those by faculty in ed. and psych. departments. like Complete Idiot's Guide to Study Skills. Of course there are also books on math/science, such as the Cliffs course supplements.

Hello, there seems to be a lot of stress on your shoulders from your own table, You are making yourself stressed which is losing lack of attention in class cause you to receive lower marks from your potential abilities and expected grades, there aren't very many ways to cope with this but one way is very blunt, this method can be sorted in many different ways, My e-mail ir Corey.lang96@hotmail.com if you would like to talk more about this.