Hate my birthday, what should I do?

finally 20. every birthday since I was a kid I just hated the feeling of all the attention going towards me. makes me feel vulnerable to something out there that I can't even explain. it's almost like I'm the president and I'm being protected from getting assassinated lmao. Don't get me wrong, I celebrate other birthdays with great joy. Its just on my birthday that I just feel like complete sh*t and depressed - its as bad as an ending of a deep relationship. I try to keep myself quiet and on the DL (down low) from humanity every time my birthday comes. I even turned down a dinner from my parents, because I just hated the reason that we're going out to dinner because OF ME. I hate it, I dont like to be the main reason, I dont want to be in the spotlight. Yeah, I may be overreacting, but there is something that I am not realizing, and I need to look at my birthday in a different perspective...any solutions?